Last preparatory day before last final // Shinobu ;w;

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LOL ignore the 18, it's supposed to be 15 HAHAHA *oops*
This was asked in my friend's SIT interview today omg @_@ I'm shocked.

Anyway, another day spent studying for investment paper tomorrow.
Actually all I did was the 2013/14 paper. That's all.
The rest of the time was spent trying to find suitable jobs that I can like squeeze in between March and April?
My Japan trip in April is starting to become a burden to me because now I have no idea how to find jobs, because I don't even know when my sister can take leave in April and we can go. Shit, and if we book tickets this late, it'll be more expensive right.
Starting to regret agreeing to travel with my sister. I should have known that she'll always be last minute. But tbh it's not her fault. Her schedule doesn't come out this early and she also can't go and ask the sister in the ward about her breaks next month.
Actually to be honest this isn't a big problem. I won't die even if I can't find jobs. It's not like I'm in need of money, and I have money saved in my bank.

It's just that (1) my mom is pressuring me to find a job (she claims she isn't but you know it's real when you feel the pressure), just because she doesn't want to see me sitting at home all day.
(2) Actually I do need to work and earn the money back because this Japan trip is going to literally cost me a bomb. (~$3k. All expenses paid by me)  But I can always find a job after coming back from Japan. Which I guess, the safest time to start work is already May, and work all the way until my uni starts, probably in July-Aug. That is if I managed to get in successfully.

Yes, I realize it's an awkward timing. My friend told me that most ppl usually work first, and then go for holiday before their uni starts. Sighsssss
Can't do anything about it. I already agreed to go with her long ago.
The only thing to do is just to look at the positive side, and look forward to seeing those sakura trees bloom in full beauty in April, when spring begins there.

So I have to try to find jobs in March (guess event jobs are most suitable at this rate?). Shit not even 1 month jobs are suitable to me now because I have no idea when my sister is able to take leave. What if she's able to only take leave in a particular week in April, but I've already agreed on a job and am working during that week?
See that's the problem =.=

The problem now:
First week of March: Rest. Have last paper, go collect testimonial letter, go cat cafe.
Second week of March: Going to SIM open house with friends on Friday. Can probably work Mon to Thurs? Weekends will be reserved to think about and apply for uni already.
Third week of March: All the way till 16 March Wednesday, that is the SIM application deadline. Need to make sure I settle uni stuff too.
Fourth week of March: No plans. Can work. But can't find job now cuz I have so little time left.

Gahhhhh life is tough, life is tough.

Anyway move on c:

I was bored and tried to create a music sheet, because so many people have been asking me music sheets for my piano arrangements, I finally gave in and tried creating one as I'm bored from studying investment

And the result is...

Yup, that's my music sheet.
It may not seem a lot, but do you know how long that took me?
Freaking 2-3 hours man.
Because I was doing it from scratch. I was learning everything from start.
How to create that double staves. How to add key signatures, flats, sharps, notes, how you do that wave thing, there's actually a lot of stuff input just to create those two bars of right hand. I'm not even started with the left hand.
I didn't know creating music sheets online could be so complicated.

Either that or I'm just really slow and noob in this XD

Also tried many attempts at some of Ice's songs from Cytus but fail...

Just one of my many practices ;-;
Practising is tough.I love Ice's music but his songs kills my fingers as much as he kills me in the game itself. (these songs are all boss songs in the game *slams head on table*)Game: CytusSong: Precipitation II (https://youtu.be/NRrog_fcXXs)End song: L2B (https://youtu.be/8nF7MU5iGng)
Posted by Rui ruii on Monday, February 29, 2016

Gah I still have much room for improvement.
But today, an anon gathered enough courage and sent this to me on my tumblr blog ;w;



Which makes me really really really happy (heart fluttering)
I replied to the anon and it can be found here.
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Shinobu came to my house just now ;w; about a couple of hours ago.
Omg before I came down to find him, he called my phone and this was what happened XD

Call 1: (the phone really couldn't connect)
*silence* (I usually do not talk first when the number is unknown.)
Him: Hello?
Me: *suspicious voice* ...hello? >:o
Him: ?? Hello? Can you hear me? (something like this)
Me: ...?? huh? Hello? *a little louder* >:O
Him: (seems like really cannot hear me) Hellooooooooooooooo?? (okay he didn't say this HAHA)
Me: ... (realized he cannot hear me and cuts the call)

Me: >:O That voice somehow sounds familiar but it's probably some wrong call.

Me: *goes back to editing video*

Call 2: Phone: *rings again* (the call is normal now)

Me: O_O *stunned*
Me: (answers) >:O??

Him: Hello????
Me: ...Hello?
Him: Hello??
Me: Hello? Who you? >:O *suspicious tone*
Him: It's me Shinobu!!!
Me:...
Me:...*ding*
Me: EH?!
Me: OMG XDDDD *starts laughing*
Me: HAHAHAHA omg sorry, um this phone doesn't have your contact saved now and-- *starts explaining*
Him: It's okay, could you come down for 5 minutes?
Me: --huh? *thoughts processing*
Me: HUH YOU'RE AT MY PLACE NOW?! *dashed to window and looks out trying to look for him*
Him: Yeah
Me: WHAT
ME: O-O-OKAY I'M COMING *cuts call*

Not 100% accurate but roughly it's like that ^^^^
I flew down to the side gate thinking he's at the bus stop opposite yew tee mrt, but when I saw his msg that he's at the bus stop right at my condo, I spun a 180 degrees and ran the whole perimeter around the condo to the bus stop he's at XDD

And found him standing there (Shinobu why aren't you even sitting on the seats when they're empty XD)
I was like out of breath by the time I met him, but nevertheless we see each other again c:
The first thought that came to my mind when I saw him was "Ah, looks like his hair grew a little longer"
He was holding the mos burger soup bag out (which totally surprised me), and in his bag he retrieved another bag containing some sweets and green tea drink which he bought back from Malaysia for me ;w;

 

It was so sweet of him ;w; he stopped by Lot 1 Mos Burger to get the corn soup for me (he even remembered I like corn soup) first as supper before coming to my place. To surprise me.
How did I react at the phone?
Me: *suspicious tone* Who you >:OO (*LAUGHING*)
God I feel so bad.
My voice recognition ability sucks *facepalm*

When I saw all that he brought for me, I was so happy, I actually wanted to hug him.
But I decided not to because I just can't suddenly hug him out of nowhere right XD
So I just walked him off to the pedestrian crossing, and I guess he didn't notice but I continued standing there seeing him off after he crossed the road until he's out of sight, before I walked back to the gate.
Lol the lorry driver was like looking at me and looking at the green man like "why isn't this girl crossing the road" XDD

”がんばります”

Was surprised to find this note as well ;w;
Pinned it on the wooden board XD

Okay that's all. I need to sleep.
Last paper tomorrow.
LET'S GOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO

Sunday // More stomach pain ._.

Seriously what's wrong with my stomach these two days.
The first part is because of my menses. Even though it's already the 4th day. I had to take panadol again and couldn't move in bed during the afternoon. There goes my studies.

Called my mom in to ask about dinner cuz I'm too weak to move too, and ended up getting lectured cuz I refused to listen to her and take the bai feng wang pills =3= tsk, my life.
Cuz they're so damn bitter! So I refuse to take and ended up getting scolded by her every month.
Meh, she ended up making ginger herbs soup for me to drink after dinner, which seems to help...

...but didn't help for the current stomach pain I'm suffering now.
Probably bloatness? Like too much wind trapped inside.

I have no idea how though, I basically didn't eat a lot today? Like my mom cut down my portion greatly already.

God my body ALWAYS does this to me before my exams.
It's always this time of the month I hate being a girl LOL

Still managed to have the energy to go out and buy muffins for breakfast tomorrow though XD
Though when I arrived at the mall, I felt weak and my stomach cramps coming back. Think I looked like a walking ghost there =.=

There was a cake stall at the basement which sells some good looking cakes. I tried their Oreo cake and it tasted good! Too bad they're only selling whole cakes ($26 each) and not slice. If not I would have bought some slices home ;-;
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In a normal year, today (the 28th) would have been the last day of the month of February.
But since 2016's a leap year, tomorrow there'll be an additional 29th day.
Happy birthday to all the leap year babies lol.
Not that I know one personally. Will be cool to get to know one someday though.

Meh, will be spending tomorrow studying as usual. Really the last lap preparing for my last exams on Tuesday.

*glance at time*
Guess I'll play a bit of Cytus before I sleep.

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Just signed up for the SIMge talks.
Going on 11 March Friday with Yi Ning, her friend Geraldine and Geraldine's friend.

Praying that all goes well.

MILI SENPAI / Stomach pain?

COMMENTED ON MY VIDEO TODAY (video here)

THERE IT IS.

Okay the truth is, I've seen Mili comment on other people's piano covers of their songs before with similar comments like "amazing" or "fantastic", so mine isn't really that special tbh XD
But what I didn't expect was, Mili has commented on those with thousands of subs and views, so I thought they wouldn't bother with such a small and low channel like mine (less than a thousand subs).
But they still did O_O

 

NEVER DELETING THIS NOTIFICATION.

(I said that as I accidentally swiped the notification away about 1.5 hrs later ;_; nooooo)

Omg I'm so happy and excited and honoured idk ahhhhh
It's a great honour ;w;

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Omg.

Why.

Do.

I

Have

Stomach

Pain.!?@#?!@?#!@

1) Ate too much yesterday. Highly possible.

2) Menstrual pain.

3) Ate something that's not right. Like...the kueh bahulu my parents bought back from Malaysia. Or the pork floss my grandaunt gave us, which according to my mom have been left out for too long.
Or I've been drinking too much packet milo. Which according to my mom contains milk, which is not easy on the stomach.

4) Idk my stomach just hates me. Which it always does.

But despite my stomach pain, I still managed to study more chapters today and only left the last chapter! c:

And Shinobu finally came home today. Welcome back to civilisation Shinobu! LOL
Glad he's back safe and sound :)

Friday // Boku Dake ga Inai Machi talk

Finally started revising for investment paper today lol.
Here's all the topics we need to study, highlighted in yellow.

I read up to Technical Analysis today.
I can't say that I've memorized everything (ratios, charts) fully and am confident, but I roughly know.
There's still time. Have the weekends and Monday to study.

Yeah that's all. Just studying.

A letter came this evening, addressed to all of us residents to pick on a colour scheme for the contracted painters to repaint our condo building.

So according to the instructions, we were supposed to find the colour samples at this particular block lobby A etc etc...



So I followed the instructions obediently and indeed, I found the colour schemes at Blk 52 lobby A, facing the swimming pool...

Winds were pretty strong outside this evening. Glad I came down.
...and after I went back to my own block, I realized that we can see the colour schemes at our own lobby too -_-
REALLY.
And to think I actually walked past it without noticing it at the corner of my eye!!
-_-
Never mind, if I had noticed it, I wouldn't have come out and enjoyed the strong wind.

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So...I watched the lastest episode of Boku dake ga Inai Machi. Episode 8.
And it really killed me with all the feels T_T

I already made a detailed post about it on my tumblr blog here, but I'll summarize it here:
Basically, Satoru went back in time to try and save his classmate and friend Hinazuki Kayo, who've as we've seen through the episodes, constantly been verbally and physically abused by her mom, and neglected by her dad.

Her dad is an alcoholic, who neglects her existence and constantly sits in front of the TV if he isn't outside.

Her mom is on a whole other level. She just purely hates her daughter, beating her and leaving bruises on her body, holding her head under iced water in the sink so that the bruises on her face will disappear and leave no evidence that she's been abused.

So in this episode, after discovering that hiding in the bus is no longer safe as it's in the centre point of the serial kidnapping, Satoru and friends brought Kayo to his home to stay for the night.
Satoru's mom is shown taking care of Kayo and giving her the motherly love she's never experienced before, which already made me teary ;-;

Bathing together:

 

 Drying her hair because she'll catch a cold if it's not dried properly.

The more emotional scene came the next morning when Satoru's mom made breakfast for the both of them.

And when Kayo sees it, she remembers what she gets back at home:

Cup ramen, which is very unhealthy,

Plain bread, where her mom did not even bother spreading jam or any other filling on it.

Small change, which may not even be sufficient to get a proper breakfast.

And...she cried ;-;

And my heart cried along with her ;_________________;

Back at home, her mom is on a rampage just from the sight of her table.

About to wreck her poor daughter's table too.

Omg this turned out way longer than I planned lol

Got too into this.

I really want to see them take Kayo away from her parents as soon as possible.

Or Satoru's mom should just adopt Kayo. All problems solved!

Well not really if they want to get together XD

Also been re-reading and re-watching Sket Dance again.
Listened to their songs and missed them ;-; ahhh I'm still hoping they'd have a season 2 and animate the rest of the manga, because the later parts of the manga is extremely epic.

Especially the last part *SPOILERS*, where Switch actually stops using his laptop and speaks verbally.
 That was really touching man.

The truth // URGH PERIOD CRAMPS

Yup, just a day after, she already had it printed out and emailed me@_@ fast teacher is fast.

And I felt that I have to tell her the truth why I took so long to reply, so there it is.

Well. Fingers crossed on 22 March.

Also, after finally finding the song which has this particular catchy tune (1:17 to 1:23) stuck in my head:


The song L2B, is the second hidden song of the song called L.
Composed by ICE.

It's sounds so cool!! And it's cool on the game chart too (1:19 to 1:26)


(this person got TP100 btw, not only million master. Freaking insane. TP100 is a lot harder to get than million master because TP100 means you pressed all the notes at the exact perfect timing, not only just pressing it at the right timing)

At first I thought the melody is from Precipitation, also composed by ICE. But no matter how I listened, the tune is not there in both precipitation songs!
I love precipitation too btw. >W<

Then I tried listening to all three versions of Entrance, also composed by ICE. Also not there!

But the tune definitely sounds like something ICE will compose. And then I thought of L, and found it in one of its hidden songs!

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URGH IT'S HERE AGAIN
Apparently it's 5 days late this month. According to my blog posts, in January it came on the 20th of the month.
I was still fine this morning but by the afternoon, I was dying on my bed
Woman problems woman problems...
Just gave up and ate my panadol about half an hour ago. Still not really feeling the effects yet. Still dying.
*soul flies out*

Anyway, my sister came back from Japan in the wee hours this morning (apparently she's dying too from gastric flu? She's like shivering and wrapped up in jacket with heat pads in her pockets.)
Saw her new boyfriend called Jerome (lol bye Guo Dong) sitting at the dining table too.

Ehhh she got me this GSNK mug coaster that they (she+bf) won from the arcade! c:

 

 

It's Mikorin!! How cute~!
She remembered that I watched this anime even though she herself didn't watch it XD

And later on, she came into my room and showed me a video of a very delicious looking cheese tart:



Anddd later on, she brought me to the fridge and showed me they actually bought it back from Japan! XDD

I was shocked and genuinely surprised hahaha.

It tasted good and contains cheesy goodness. Not a bad treat for the afternoon.

'Cept later I was dying cuz it's cold stuff and my period just came LOL

Ah wells worth it.
Also chatted with her new boyfriend and got to know a bit more about him.

He seems quite nice. To be honest I'm actually glad my sister changed boyfriends. I didn't really like her previous boyfriend that much.
At first glance, he seems quite alright. But the more I got to know him, the more I didn't like seeing him. When he and my sister is together, I don't know, I get the feeling that he's always looking down on me? And teasing me and thinks that I don't know and can't do a single thing? And I don't think he likes me back too. 

So whatever he says or does always irks me off. Along with my sister. And I have told her about this before. Which she didn't seem to pay attention to much.

So I'm glad that she changed boyfriends. Although of course she changed for different reasons and not about me of course. Now this new guy seems pretty nice and friendly. But after having experienced with my sister changing so many boyfriends (think about 3-4 official ones already? Bet she has seen more guys but didn't tell me), I'm always on guard with her new boyfriends now HAHA

Guys may seem nice on the appearance, but lesson learnt you really have to observe and see their personalities, the longer you are with them. >.>

Cuz there's one time when I was working in some F&B job (just for a day, I got "fired" soon after for unknown reasons LOL, but I got my pay anyway :D) and there's this guy who's a year below me. He seems nice at first, but throughout the day as we interacted more with each other, he started to tease me and call me xiao mei mei, which really REALLY irks me off because HE is YOUNGER THAN ME.

And I generally HATE IT when guys younger than me call me that. It feels so disgusting omg *shudders with hair standing up*
Actually screw that. I generally hate it when guys call me that. Like ew, not even my own brother calls me that. He used to call me mei, which is perfectly acceptable seeing as we're related by blood and he's older, but even now he's stopped calling me that and started calling me by my actual name.

Anyone younger than me by more than a year, I already see them as kids XD (oops) 

I repeat, more than a year. So friends who are born in the same year as me, don't worry I still see them as my age. But slightly younger. Slightly.

Anyway because of my period pain, I wasted 2/3 of the day away again. I think I should most probably start studying at night?

Wednesday.

Ended up relaxing the whole day, and never looked nor touched my investment notes at all.
Just chilled, watched anime, played Cytus, rest. Rest rest and rest.
Partly following my friends who decided to chill and not study too XDD

That's all. Nothing much happened today.

Found out that after today, Ayano still have one more presentation and poster to do, and deadline is next Monday. Which means she's still ending poly one day earlier than me =3=

Ahh all thanks to my exam timetable having awkward timing.

Wanna write a fanfiction of my favourite OTP from owari no seraph because sometimes I thought of some nice fluffy scenes but I can't--- I cringe before even starting the first word as I'm scared I'll write them too out of character XD God how does Ayano write more than one fanfic story ahh

AFA final // embarrassing moment(s)

God have mercy on me
I beg of you today again.

Update:

WHEEEEEEEEEEEEEE

Okay, I survived it.
The paper was manageable. No doubt I sacrificed the theory question, and I think I really screwed up the second question (FOREX), but I could actually finish the paper. Because I heard from my teacher that some people weren't able to complete the paper (the previous batch).
I'm feeling somewhat confident that I'm able to pass. That's all I'm asking for. Not much.
I did what I could. I did whatever I could to save myself and get my ass out of here.

No wait.

I still have investment paper next Tuesday URGH. Awkward timing like what Ayano thinks.

Sigh many people already enjoying their holidays. Ayano's last paper ends tomorrow.

Ganbatte Ayano.

Oh God Ms Lai found me today and asked me why I haven't replied her email (where she sent me her testimonial letter) on the way to the exam venue /A\
I feel so guilty and embarrassed (because Shu Ying was with me) and I came up with a lame lie saying I "forgot" but the truth was I couldn't bear to reply thank you as 1. I'm changing away from SIT accountancy 2. I'm not confirmed on going UNI 3. Gahhh all these are just petty excuses I know
So I thanked her profusely right on the spot, and she said if it's okay she'll print out on the letter head. Confused, I asked what's that and Shu Ying laughed, making me feel even more embarrassed for not knowing. (Letterhead = just the school official paper with the logo and address all that)
Anyway Shu Ying said because she herself didn't know too at first, so that's why she laughed when she found out I didn't know what it was either XD

God I feel guilty even writing this now. Feel so bad.
Wanna slam my head and hide somewhereeeeeeeeee

Reached outside exam venue early and stoned outside.
There was a track fault today towards JE. Luckily I left earlier.

Haiz. Tonight is completely rest night. Tomorrow I'll probably start studying? But will be very slack.

Shinobu actually managed to connect to WIFI this evening! Got a surprise when I saw his message as I was playing the piano. Didn't expect to hear from him until a few days later XD
I bet he was so happy to be able to talk to me the first night he's there XD
We chatted quite a bit and he showed me all the delicious cafe food, and there's one very distinct part I remember hahaha:

Also I told him we're all made of star dust.

Did you know we're all made of stars which died?
We're made of the same dust from the dying stars we look up to at night.
We're the stars who have fallen from the skies, and descended to earth for just a short period of time.
And people have been making wishes on falling stars for thousands of years.
We're made of stars that people have wished on before. What sort of wishes do we carry?

And when we die, our bodies will get absorbed into the earth.
Our souls will fly back to the skies.
And our star dust will once again reunite with the other dying stars in space.
We'll be in both the land and sky.
In the earth, our body decomposes and brings life to plants.
In the skies, our souls rest and look over the new generations, possibly our own children and grandchildren.

Someday when I die, I want to be reincarnated as a bird.
Maybe a strong and beautiful bird like an eagle or swan.
So I can soar in the skies as and when I want to, and be free.
And fly, fly away....