Just finished constructing a Facebook page to share all my piano covers to!
Facebook page: Rui ruii
Yes!
So today I went with three other people to some warehouse sale where several blogshops are clearing their stock there.
I didn't get anything much except only 1 top because the clothes there are not really nice. Or just so-so. :/
We spent a couple of hours there, then headed to causeway point to spend the rest of our afternoon there.
We had pepper lunch for lunch, and we all ordered cheesy omelette with curry rice with chicken/beef. Very full. The portions are always large. X.X
So yes that's how I spent my Saturday.~
But more importantly....
*ANIME SECTION BELOW*
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TONIGHT KONOHA IS GOING TO APPER IN THE COMING FOURTH MEKAKUCITY ACTORS EPISODE.
FINALLY.
I'VE BEEN WAITING TO SEE HIM MOVE AND TALK.
I kept checking the Mekakucity Actors anime website for screenshot previews of the fourth episode.
AND THEY FINALLY UPDATED A FEW HOURS BEFORE THE EPISODE AIRS.
AND KONOHA APPEARS.
(As well as Hiyori)
Yes, the infamous truck scene is going to happen tonight.
This is when the whole kagepro thing started getting really popular.
I am looking really, really foward to this episode.
Please, please do not disappoint me. ;_;
Need to wait until 11pm...
Saturday 3 May 2014
Friday 2 May 2014
Friday night
Parents are coming back tonight! Yay yay.
At 9pm later(which is quite soon already), I'm going with my sister to the airport to welcome them back.~
Today my friends and I also gave Shu Ying an early birthday present. (Her birthday is tomorrow)
Yes, she realized that we lied when we said we're going home immediately after we ate at the little humble but sweet cafe called MollyCoddle at Clementi which serves toast ice cream.
Here's a picture:~
I ordered honey toast double scoop(Salted caramel and vanilla). Yum yum.~
But I actually don't know how to use a fork and knife properly, so I had a really hard time trying to cut the toast, so as a result all the ice cream melted and it was really funny and all my friends were laughing at me HAHAHA. *depressing lines behind my head*
In the end one of them helped me to cut my toast. ._.
*cough* Anyway, so yeah, we gave Shu Ying her early birthday present.
4 face masks, one skin lotion and starbucks gift card.
And she's happy with them, so all is good.~
She turns 19 this year haha.
Tomorrow I'm going with her and two more people to some warehouse sale quite near my house.~
Hopefully I'll be able to buy a new phone case because my old bumper broke. ;n;
But I actually don't know how to use a fork and knife properly, so I had a really hard time trying to cut the toast, so as a result all the ice cream melted and it was really funny and all my friends were laughing at me HAHAHA. *depressing lines behind my head*
In the end one of them helped me to cut my toast. ._.
*cough* Anyway, so yeah, we gave Shu Ying her early birthday present.
4 face masks, one skin lotion and starbucks gift card.
And she's happy with them, so all is good.~
She turns 19 this year haha.
Tomorrow I'm going with her and two more people to some warehouse sale quite near my house.~
Hopefully I'll be able to buy a new phone case because my old bumper broke. ;n;
Thursday 1 May 2014
Happy Labour's day!
Hurry up and come home, ma and pa.
Too many days I leave the house, still dark, silent and empty.
Too many days I come back to a dark, silent and empty house, and spend the night alone.
I'm really scared of the dark.
I don't want to be alone for too long.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~
For the past few days, my parents left for a one-week vacation trip to China(as usual, they always go to China and never get sick of it.)
I managed fine together with my siblings, but because both of them are often not at home, I had to do most of the household chores myself, no matter how tired I am or how much schoolwork I had, especially if I'm alone in the house for that day.
I realized that a student can never live alone by himself without at least one more person helping out with domestic work.
But I have to leave the cooking and the washing of clothes to my sister, though. I don't know how to cook, and I don't know how to use the washing machine. I hanged the clothes and kept them after that.
It's fine. Now this shows that we can live by ourselves at least a week without our parents.
After all, all three of their children are at least 18 yrs and above already.
They're coming back tomorrow night, and I'm going to the airport with my sister to welcome them back.
Looking foward to see them, I really miss them.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~
So, a now-ex classmate of mine transferred to another class yesterday.
Everyone knows why she transferred.
But I do not care, because she is not close to me.
I was only concerned that she return me my phone charger that was long overdue.
The previous day, I lent her my charger without a second thought, expecting her to return it to me soon.
But then, a dramatic event occured (one of my male classmates hurled a string of vulgarities at my friend, the class chairperson, when he was being paired with the classmate who has now transferred to another class, for some class activity for class participation marks, and naturally my friend, who was all innocent because it was her teacher who arranged them not her, and she started crying loudly after the class left), and in the midst of all the chaos, she actually dared to leave the school with my charger without even telling me.
Ah, while typing all of this, I started feeling angry again.
So I won't type this too much in detail, because then I will start feeling all kinds of unpleasant feelings.
Of course, she returned my charger THE NEXT DAY, only after much pestering and reminders from me.
Even when she return to me, she had such a black face on and didn't even mutter a "thanks" or "sorry" to me. Really? I should be the one having a black face on since she was being so rude.
But whatever, the matter is over. Everybody is glad and relieved that she is finally out of our class.
So am I.
Previously, I actually had nothing against her, since I never worked with her for projects before, and I always didn't pay much attention to her anyway since I had no reason to.
But after this incident, yeah. I dislike her. A lot.
And I'm glad that she's out.
And most of the other classes know of her in bad way, because my classmates spread news about her to their other friends.
I guess that's partly the reason for her black face.
Well good luck to her.
I don't, and never did, even care about her anymore.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~
It's Labour day, and it's always a personal reminder to me.
That I'm going to turn another year older in 5 days time.
This year, I'm going to turn 18.
However, with all the recent events that happened to me, I feel that I'm not going to turn 18 with honour.
No, I don't deserve to turn 18.
I still can't do a lot of things.
I'm still naive about so many things in the world.
I can't cook, I can't wash clothes
I cry easily
I am weak
I still can't use a fork and knife properly
Many things happen daily that makes me reluctant to look foward to my birthday.
I'm like "Don't come!"
I can't.
But time doesn't care.
Like it or not, you're going to grow older.
I wish that, on my 18th birthday, nothing bad will happen.
Not over here, not over in Singapore, not over in the world.
Of course that is an impossible wish.
Every minute something bad always happens.
What makes my birthday so special that on that day itself, all good things will happen and all bad things will cease just because I turn 18?
That's why,
I shall wish for something else.
Like a giant harp seal pup pillow or something.
But really.
On my birthday, I shall go through that day with pride and honour that I have managed to survive 18 years on Earth, and counting.
Even though I gave up so many times, cried a lot and felt depressed because I felt left behind by people I know in life, or just simply because I couldn't do a simple thing, I will still walk on.
I will not waste my life.
If I can live, I will live on. For as long as I can.
Too many days I leave the house, still dark, silent and empty.
Too many days I come back to a dark, silent and empty house, and spend the night alone.
I'm really scared of the dark.
I don't want to be alone for too long.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~
For the past few days, my parents left for a one-week vacation trip to China(as usual, they always go to China and never get sick of it.)
I managed fine together with my siblings, but because both of them are often not at home, I had to do most of the household chores myself, no matter how tired I am or how much schoolwork I had, especially if I'm alone in the house for that day.
I realized that a student can never live alone by himself without at least one more person helping out with domestic work.
But I have to leave the cooking and the washing of clothes to my sister, though. I don't know how to cook, and I don't know how to use the washing machine. I hanged the clothes and kept them after that.
It's fine. Now this shows that we can live by ourselves at least a week without our parents.
After all, all three of their children are at least 18 yrs and above already.
They're coming back tomorrow night, and I'm going to the airport with my sister to welcome them back.
Looking foward to see them, I really miss them.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~
So, a now-ex classmate of mine transferred to another class yesterday.
Everyone knows why she transferred.
But I do not care, because she is not close to me.
I was only concerned that she return me my phone charger that was long overdue.
The previous day, I lent her my charger without a second thought, expecting her to return it to me soon.
But then, a dramatic event occured (one of my male classmates hurled a string of vulgarities at my friend, the class chairperson, when he was being paired with the classmate who has now transferred to another class, for some class activity for class participation marks, and naturally my friend, who was all innocent because it was her teacher who arranged them not her, and she started crying loudly after the class left), and in the midst of all the chaos, she actually dared to leave the school with my charger without even telling me.
Ah, while typing all of this, I started feeling angry again.
So I won't type this too much in detail, because then I will start feeling all kinds of unpleasant feelings.
Of course, she returned my charger THE NEXT DAY, only after much pestering and reminders from me.
Even when she return to me, she had such a black face on and didn't even mutter a "thanks" or "sorry" to me. Really? I should be the one having a black face on since she was being so rude.
But whatever, the matter is over. Everybody is glad and relieved that she is finally out of our class.
So am I.
Previously, I actually had nothing against her, since I never worked with her for projects before, and I always didn't pay much attention to her anyway since I had no reason to.
But after this incident, yeah. I dislike her. A lot.
And I'm glad that she's out.
And most of the other classes know of her in bad way, because my classmates spread news about her to their other friends.
I guess that's partly the reason for her black face.
Well good luck to her.
I don't, and never did, even care about her anymore.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~
It's Labour day, and it's always a personal reminder to me.
That I'm going to turn another year older in 5 days time.
This year, I'm going to turn 18.
However, with all the recent events that happened to me, I feel that I'm not going to turn 18 with honour.
No, I don't deserve to turn 18.
I still can't do a lot of things.
I'm still naive about so many things in the world.
I can't cook, I can't wash clothes
I cry easily
I am weak
I still can't use a fork and knife properly
Many things happen daily that makes me reluctant to look foward to my birthday.
I'm like "Don't come!"
I can't.
But time doesn't care.
Like it or not, you're going to grow older.
I wish that, on my 18th birthday, nothing bad will happen.
Not over here, not over in Singapore, not over in the world.
Of course that is an impossible wish.
Every minute something bad always happens.
What makes my birthday so special that on that day itself, all good things will happen and all bad things will cease just because I turn 18?
That's why,
I shall wish for something else.
Like a giant harp seal pup pillow or something.
But really.
On my birthday, I shall go through that day with pride and honour that I have managed to survive 18 years on Earth, and counting.
Even though I gave up so many times, cried a lot and felt depressed because I felt left behind by people I know in life, or just simply because I couldn't do a simple thing, I will still walk on.
I will not waste my life.
If I can live, I will live on. For as long as I can.
Sunday 27 April 2014
Go on.
One step at a time,
Foward,
Even if I'm really scared of the future ahead,
Even if I'm really scared of the things around me now,
Even though I may break down into tears and cry,
Even if I'm already crying,
But I have to fight on.
Through school.
Through life.
Yes.
She is fighting too.
So am I.
I'm not brave or strong. Neither am I smart. Nor am I good with socializing with people.
But I will go on.
Foward,
Even if I'm really scared of the future ahead,
Even if I'm really scared of the things around me now,
Even though I may break down into tears and cry,
Even if I'm already crying,
But I have to fight on.
Through school.
Through life.
Yes.
She is fighting too.
So am I.
I'm not brave or strong. Neither am I smart. Nor am I good with socializing with people.
But I will go on.
Rienx's rambles
Yes, I did something stupid again.
Yes, it was my fault that I hit my sister first.
Yes, I'm the one that has to apologise first for every real conflict I get into, as usual.
Yes yes yes, I'm not nice to talk to, I'm hard to approach, I turn people away, I'm ugly, and I rarely talk.
God knows why was I even born.
It's times like this that makes me wish that I wasn't born at all.
Yes, then I'm being insensitive to the millions of babies who died in their mothers' wombs before they even had a chance to see the world.
Okay, so I apologised.
Yet you're still so bitter with me.
Fine.
I can't do anything anymore.
Anyway, I have more important things to worry about. The world doesn't revolve around you.
I am pretty, pretty certain that my random heart palpitations are caused by stress and anxiety that I'm feeling.
Maybe I'm just feeling a bit more stress and anxiety than usual that causes my heart to have irregular rythm.
Yes, that's it.
Nothing more.
Nothing more.
If not, fate decided that maybe it actually doesn't really need me in this world at all, so it decided that it will kill me with some random, sudden heart attack or something.
But I never inherited nor developed any heart condition(although my mother has a history of heart condition when she was young), and I think I never did until now.
So these heart palpitations must be due to stress.
Yes.
Nothing more.
Nothing more.
And now I just want to sleep and forget everything that's happened today.
I want to wake up and go to school tomorrow(Even if I don't want to) and forget everything that happened yesterday.
I want to forget about the fight with my sister.
I want to forget about my heart.
I want to concentrate in school and distract me from all the bitter things that I'm feeling now...
Yes, it was my fault that I hit my sister first.
Yes, I'm the one that has to apologise first for every real conflict I get into, as usual.
Yes yes yes, I'm not nice to talk to, I'm hard to approach, I turn people away, I'm ugly, and I rarely talk.
God knows why was I even born.
It's times like this that makes me wish that I wasn't born at all.
Yes, then I'm being insensitive to the millions of babies who died in their mothers' wombs before they even had a chance to see the world.
Okay, so I apologised.
Yet you're still so bitter with me.
Fine.
I can't do anything anymore.
Anyway, I have more important things to worry about. The world doesn't revolve around you.
I am pretty, pretty certain that my random heart palpitations are caused by stress and anxiety that I'm feeling.
Maybe I'm just feeling a bit more stress and anxiety than usual that causes my heart to have irregular rythm.
Yes, that's it.
Nothing more.
Nothing more.
If not, fate decided that maybe it actually doesn't really need me in this world at all, so it decided that it will kill me with some random, sudden heart attack or something.
But I never inherited nor developed any heart condition(although my mother has a history of heart condition when she was young), and I think I never did until now.
So these heart palpitations must be due to stress.
Yes.
Nothing more.
Nothing more.
And now I just want to sleep and forget everything that's happened today.
I want to wake up and go to school tomorrow(Even if I don't want to) and forget everything that happened yesterday.
I want to forget about the fight with my sister.
I want to forget about my heart.
I want to concentrate in school and distract me from all the bitter things that I'm feeling now...
Tuesday 22 April 2014
School starts!(Like yesterday HAHAHA)
I KNOW MY LAST POST WAS THREE DAYS AGO AND I KNOW I SAID I WILL POST PICTURES OF MY RIVER SAFARI VISIT.
BUT I'VE BEEN FEELING VERY LAZY TO POST PICTURES AND I'VE BEEN BUSY TRYING TO MAKE PIANO COVERS FOR MY CHANNEL BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS.
JUST WAIT.
I'm making a note here first listing who my subscribers are so I don't forget, because some of them keep their subscriptions private and I want to know who all my subscribers are.
(In order of who subscribes first etc.)
1. Huda
2. Yeo
3. Elisa
4. Ruby(Joel) RS (I don't have his youtube channel account currently.)
5. Hui Wen
6. Tuvi
7 and 8. My parents. (Aha, they like to listen to my piano covers. ^^)
9. Edwina
10.Angelo RS (Also don't know his youtube channel account)
11.Unknown subscriber. (Probably another one of my friends.)
Yeps, 11 subscribers! All are my nice friends who subscribed to me and support me HAHAHA XD. Well, my channel is still relatively small and new so not many people out of my circle of friends view my videos, let alone subscribe HAHAHA because my channel only has 5 piano covers so far. @_@
My fourth piano cover:
And my fifth and current piano cover: Though, I will continue making piano covers as and when I can, of course.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Okay okay, enough about my youtube channel.
First about today--
We have a new classmate!
It's a guy. XD
He's a foward student, meaning he is repeating a particular module, so he is like a partial classmate? Because his timetable is different from us. Some classes he will join us, other classes he will not. @_@
But nevertheless, now our class has 10 guys and 10 girls. Equal. XD
Today we have a one hour lesson only. We met our personal tutor(like a form teacher for our class), a lady named Ms Lai.
She's our financial accounting management(FAM) tutor too.
We also decided our new class rep, assistant class rep and treasurer.
I wasn't any one of them haha.
After that one hour tutorial, I went with my friends to buy our new FAM textbook(which costs a little over $30 @_@), then I ran all the way back up slope to the hilltop library carpark, where my father came with my mother, my sister and her bf to bring all of us down to the hospital.
My mother has another scanning to do today. She's going to have her womb and uterus scanned.
It's like she's going for regular checkups for her new baby HAHAHA.
I'll be like "Hey guys!(to my friends) I'm gonna have a new younger sibling! She/he's 18 years younger than me!! :DD"
NO WAY I want a sibling 18 years apart from me. @_@
So anyway, her appointment was supposed to be at 4.30pm, but we waited for more than 1 hour before the doctor called her in.
After that, we still have to wait for her to go into the consultation room.
Fortunately the results all showed that she's fine. The bleeding she still has every month is also normal. Well, it's not really normal, it's abnormal, but it's still normal.
The doctor says that she's still considerably young because she's still below 55 yrs old, so a little bleeding here and there is nothing to worry about.
The doctor even commented how healthy my mother was. (Because she exercised everyday and ate lots of fruits and vegetables). That's just how hardworking my mother is.
So yeah, nothing to worry about.
Time to move on.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Fine.
Since I have some time now, (and there is no school tomorrow because tutorials are cancelled because lectures haven't started yet XD)
I guess I shall go edit my river safari post and post pictures there. XD
BUT I'VE BEEN FEELING VERY LAZY TO POST PICTURES AND I'VE BEEN BUSY TRYING TO MAKE PIANO COVERS FOR MY CHANNEL BEFORE SCHOOL STARTS.
JUST WAIT.
I'm making a note here first listing who my subscribers are so I don't forget, because some of them keep their subscriptions private and I want to know who all my subscribers are.
(In order of who subscribes first etc.)
1. Huda
2. Yeo
3. Elisa
4. Ruby(Joel) RS (I don't have his youtube channel account currently.)
5. Hui Wen
6. Tuvi
7 and 8. My parents. (Aha, they like to listen to my piano covers. ^^)
9. Edwina
10.Angelo RS (Also don't know his youtube channel account)
11.Unknown subscriber. (Probably another one of my friends.)
Yeps, 11 subscribers! All are my nice friends who subscribed to me and support me HAHAHA XD. Well, my channel is still relatively small and new so not many people out of my circle of friends view my videos, let alone subscribe HAHAHA because my channel only has 5 piano covers so far. @_@
My fourth piano cover:
And my fifth and current piano cover: Though, I will continue making piano covers as and when I can, of course.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Okay okay, enough about my youtube channel.
First about today--
We have a new classmate!
It's a guy. XD
He's a foward student, meaning he is repeating a particular module, so he is like a partial classmate? Because his timetable is different from us. Some classes he will join us, other classes he will not. @_@
But nevertheless, now our class has 10 guys and 10 girls. Equal. XD
Today we have a one hour lesson only. We met our personal tutor(like a form teacher for our class), a lady named Ms Lai.
She's our financial accounting management(FAM) tutor too.
We also decided our new class rep, assistant class rep and treasurer.
I wasn't any one of them haha.
After that one hour tutorial, I went with my friends to buy our new FAM textbook(which costs a little over $30 @_@), then I ran all the way back up slope to the hilltop library carpark, where my father came with my mother, my sister and her bf to bring all of us down to the hospital.
My mother has another scanning to do today. She's going to have her womb and uterus scanned.
It's like she's going for regular checkups for her new baby HAHAHA.
I'll be like "Hey guys!(to my friends) I'm gonna have a new younger sibling! She/he's 18 years younger than me!! :DD"
NO WAY I want a sibling 18 years apart from me. @_@
So anyway, her appointment was supposed to be at 4.30pm, but we waited for more than 1 hour before the doctor called her in.
After that, we still have to wait for her to go into the consultation room.
Fortunately the results all showed that she's fine. The bleeding she still has every month is also normal. Well, it's not really normal, it's abnormal, but it's still normal.
The doctor says that she's still considerably young because she's still below 55 yrs old, so a little bleeding here and there is nothing to worry about.
The doctor even commented how healthy my mother was. (Because she exercised everyday and ate lots of fruits and vegetables). That's just how hardworking my mother is.
So yeah, nothing to worry about.
Time to move on.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Fine.
Since I have some time now, (and there is no school tomorrow because tutorials are cancelled because lectures haven't started yet XD)
I guess I shall go edit my river safari post and post pictures there. XD
Saturday 19 April 2014
River safari!!
So I decided to write a blog post while waiting for the second episode of mekakucity actors to air.
I'm in the nico livestream now, and it's going to air in about like, 25 minutes time as I write, but I don't know if I'm going to get kicked out again like last week because there's too many people and I don't have premium membership so obviously I don't have a priority seat in there so.
Anyway, if I get kicked out, then too bad. XD
But I feel REALLY LAZY to blog now. I took a LOT of photos, my father too, and I combined them and post it all in an album on facebook.
So I'll only post the ones I posted on instagram because I combined them, and I'll post a few other photos that I want to show here.
TOMORROW.
I'm too sleepy and lazy now.
And too excited for the second episode. XD
But today was a lot of fun!
Even though it was really really warm and we didn't see any capybaras unlike what was promised in the map.
We saw the pandas, and we saw various other animals.
I took several videos too which I will upload tomorrow. If I'm successful.
I'm in the nico livestream now, and it's going to air in about like, 25 minutes time as I write, but I don't know if I'm going to get kicked out again like last week because there's too many people and I don't have premium membership so obviously I don't have a priority seat in there so.
Anyway, if I get kicked out, then too bad. XD
But I feel REALLY LAZY to blog now. I took a LOT of photos, my father too, and I combined them and post it all in an album on facebook.
So I'll only post the ones I posted on instagram because I combined them, and I'll post a few other photos that I want to show here.
TOMORROW.
I'm too sleepy and lazy now.
And too excited for the second episode. XD
But today was a lot of fun!
Even though it was really really warm and we didn't see any capybaras unlike what was promised in the map.
We saw the pandas, and we saw various other animals.
I took several videos too which I will upload tomorrow. If I'm successful.
But it was a fun day.
It's a pity my sister didn't go in the end. She's too tired, working night shifts consecutively, so the family is incomplete.
Anyway we didn't see any capybaras so it wasn't too disappointing for her. (Capybaras are her favourite animals)
So I'll blog more tomorrow! Too excited for the episode to come out. >.< Hahahaha!
It's a pity my sister didn't go in the end. She's too tired, working night shifts consecutively, so the family is incomplete.
Anyway we didn't see any capybaras so it wasn't too disappointing for her. (Capybaras are her favourite animals)
So I'll blog more tomorrow! Too excited for the episode to come out. >.< Hahahaha!
Friday 18 April 2014
Good Friday
Before I start to write this post...
I just read finished up to the latest chapters of the korean webtoon Crepuscule, a story about how a young pureblood vampire named Setz brings his friend who is a year younger than him, a human boy named Lark, into the vampire world after Lark is about to be sent to the orphanage. A very interesting story with the plot deepening as the chapters goes by, filled with action, supernatural and fighting.
WHY DON'T THIS COMIC HAVE A DAMN ANIME?!?!
Every time the plot thickens(and it deepens a lot of times, trust me), I'll be like: "Ohhh ohhhhh, THE PLOT INTENSIFIES."(says it in a dramatic way) HAHAHAHA
I wish that Setz will act a bit more vampire-like, thirsts for Lark's human blood, push him against the wall or even a bed and bites into his neck and slowly drinks his blood..AHH *bangs head*
WHAT AM I THINKING.
OF COURSE IT'S NOT HAPPENING.
Nooooooooo
Okay moving on.
I haven't been able to record any piano covers today. Not having much time to do so is one thing. (I usually strictly record only when the house is empty to reduce the noises in the background. I even shut all the windows in the room now to minimize background noise).
The fact that I wanted to maintain the standards of my covers, made me redo my recordings a lot of times, gaah. My perfectionist complex is kicking in.
Today I originally intended to cover Bokurano(our) let it be, ayano's happiness theory and world is born. But I was unsuccessful.
These things will happen often, I guess. Making piano covers isn't easy at all.
Plus, school is starting next week. I think at most I'll only be able to upload a piano cover once a week if I'm not so busy.
Anyway, it's not like my channel is big or popular or has thousands of subscribers, let alone I don't know, it doesn't even have 5 subscribers yet, only 3 at the moment. XD
Plus the songs that I cover aren't very well known. I think people find my covers through the tags I added to my videos.
With all those facts in consideration, when somebody sent me a personal email on my youtube telling me how she "rated my cover 5/5", how excellent my cover is(just exaggeration ^^") and telling me I can get more comments, likes and subscribers by joining some website, I was tempted to, but I realized that I can't keep this up with school starting next week.
This year is going to be a tough one, they say.
*Sigh* So my channel is not going to be very active. It'll probably remain with only 3 subscribers for a very long time.
But hey, I'm doing something. I'm putting my ability to use and sharing it with others. I'm doing something. Instead of always playing the songs to myself.
My ability, which is common and yet not so common, is to be able to hear and recognise sounds by ear, and tell exactly what pitch it is, no matter what made it. It can be a piano, a violin, drum, whatever instrument, and even a doorbell or a car horn, or the calling of the birds in the morning. This ability is commonly known as the perfect pitch, or absolute pitch in the music world.
So I use my ability when I hear songs, and my brain instantly matches the sounds with the pitches I recognise automatically, and I am able to play the songs on the piano. I've been doing this ever since a young age,(I have straight As for all of my music hearing tests) but I only started covering songs at the age of 12.
I finally felt like I've done something productive in the last week of my holidays. And I'm doing something that I love.
Making piano covers isn't easy, and I'm doing one extra step, which is hardsubbing the english translation into my covers. But that is because I want those who watch my covers to understand what the music is about, so they can really feel the music.
And I love what I do. I don't mind the extra work at all.
I realized, from this, that this is what it really means to do what you love to do. Even if there were hardly any people viewing my covers, I still feel dedicated to making as much piano covers as I can. But unfortunately I started too late. :(
But it is okay. As long as my love for the piano and music never dies, and I never lose my hearing ability(I hope I never will!), I will keep on making piano covers.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Tomorrow my father's bringing the family to river safari! I hope the animals there are cute. And it's not too smelly. >< Haha!
Unfortunately my sister is not going. She's been working night shifts at the wards these few days, and she's dead tired. This morning after showering, she went straight to her bedroom, turned on the aircon, shut herself and locked the door and slept all the way until the late afternoon. Nursing is really tiring work.
And tonight she went out again to do another night shift.
And to think yesterday she still asks me if I want to watch Kuroshitsuji live action movie this coming weekend.
Don't push yourself if you're so tired, sister! :/
Okay that's all.~ Shall look foward to Mekakucity Actors episode 2 tomorrow. *w*
I just read finished up to the latest chapters of the korean webtoon Crepuscule, a story about how a young pureblood vampire named Setz brings his friend who is a year younger than him, a human boy named Lark, into the vampire world after Lark is about to be sent to the orphanage. A very interesting story with the plot deepening as the chapters goes by, filled with action, supernatural and fighting.
WHY DON'T THIS COMIC HAVE A DAMN ANIME?!?!
Every time the plot thickens(and it deepens a lot of times, trust me), I'll be like: "Ohhh ohhhhh, THE PLOT INTENSIFIES."(says it in a dramatic way) HAHAHAHA
WHAT AM I THINKING.
OF COURSE IT'S NOT HAPPENING.
Okay moving on.
I haven't been able to record any piano covers today. Not having much time to do so is one thing. (I usually strictly record only when the house is empty to reduce the noises in the background. I even shut all the windows in the room now to minimize background noise).
The fact that I wanted to maintain the standards of my covers, made me redo my recordings a lot of times, gaah. My perfectionist complex is kicking in.
Today I originally intended to cover Bokurano(our) let it be, ayano's happiness theory and world is born. But I was unsuccessful.
These things will happen often, I guess. Making piano covers isn't easy at all.
Plus, school is starting next week. I think at most I'll only be able to upload a piano cover once a week if I'm not so busy.
Anyway, it's not like my channel is big or popular or has thousands of subscribers, let alone I don't know, it doesn't even have 5 subscribers yet, only 3 at the moment. XD
Plus the songs that I cover aren't very well known. I think people find my covers through the tags I added to my videos.
With all those facts in consideration, when somebody sent me a personal email on my youtube telling me how she "rated my cover 5/5", how excellent my cover is(just exaggeration ^^") and telling me I can get more comments, likes and subscribers by joining some website, I was tempted to, but I realized that I can't keep this up with school starting next week.
This year is going to be a tough one, they say.
*Sigh* So my channel is not going to be very active. It'll probably remain with only 3 subscribers for a very long time.
But hey, I'm doing something. I'm putting my ability to use and sharing it with others. I'm doing something. Instead of always playing the songs to myself.
My ability, which is common and yet not so common, is to be able to hear and recognise sounds by ear, and tell exactly what pitch it is, no matter what made it. It can be a piano, a violin, drum, whatever instrument, and even a doorbell or a car horn, or the calling of the birds in the morning. This ability is commonly known as the perfect pitch, or absolute pitch in the music world.
So I use my ability when I hear songs, and my brain instantly matches the sounds with the pitches I recognise automatically, and I am able to play the songs on the piano. I've been doing this ever since a young age,(I have straight As for all of my music hearing tests) but I only started covering songs at the age of 12.
I finally felt like I've done something productive in the last week of my holidays. And I'm doing something that I love.
Making piano covers isn't easy, and I'm doing one extra step, which is hardsubbing the english translation into my covers. But that is because I want those who watch my covers to understand what the music is about, so they can really feel the music.
And I love what I do. I don't mind the extra work at all.
I realized, from this, that this is what it really means to do what you love to do. Even if there were hardly any people viewing my covers, I still feel dedicated to making as much piano covers as I can. But unfortunately I started too late. :(
But it is okay. As long as my love for the piano and music never dies, and I never lose my hearing ability(I hope I never will!), I will keep on making piano covers.~
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Tomorrow my father's bringing the family to river safari! I hope the animals there are cute. And it's not too smelly. >< Haha!
Unfortunately my sister is not going. She's been working night shifts at the wards these few days, and she's dead tired. This morning after showering, she went straight to her bedroom, turned on the aircon, shut herself and locked the door and slept all the way until the late afternoon. Nursing is really tiring work.
And tonight she went out again to do another night shift.
And to think yesterday she still asks me if I want to watch Kuroshitsuji live action movie this coming weekend.
Don't push yourself if you're so tired, sister! :/
Okay that's all.~ Shall look foward to Mekakucity Actors episode 2 tomorrow. *w*
Thursday 17 April 2014
Ruirui continues working on her piano covers
On this warm thursday, I worked on and uploaded two more piano covers:
Mine, Yours:
Komorebi(Sunbeams filtering through the leaves):
This time it didn't take me very long to work on hardsubbing the text into the videos. One is because I'm getting used to it, and maybe the other is because there isn't much lyrics this time.
So that's all for now.~
Mine, Yours:
Komorebi(Sunbeams filtering through the leaves):
This time it didn't take me very long to work on hardsubbing the text into the videos. One is because I'm getting used to it, and maybe the other is because there isn't much lyrics this time.
So that's all for now.~
Wednesday 16 April 2014
Rienx starts a youtube channel?!
After posting another piano cover on my facebook and getting likes and positive feedback from my friends (well, actually only two friends commented but at least I got something!), I feel encouraged to post my cover on youtube!
And here it is!
My very first piano cover on my channel!
Well it's definitely not my first piano cover; I've been covering songs ever since I was in my first year of secondary school(middle school), which is like 5 years ago? Just that I never uploaded or recorded my covers because I was too lazy and back then I never thought of uploading them. I just played for fun. :/
But yeah anyway, yup! And I'm going to upload more as and when I can! (And when I'm not feeling too lazy, because I plan to add lyrics to my covers too haha~)
Somehow I feel just a little tiny bit productive today, because I spent the afternoon working on this video, learning from scratch and trying to fit the words nicely with the video. Ah.~
I planned to go swimming today with the nice weather and all(not sunny, just cloudy) but well, I can always go tomorrow.~
Okay that's all. Back to reading the manhwa Crepuscule.~
And here it is!
My very first piano cover on my channel!
Well it's definitely not my first piano cover; I've been covering songs ever since I was in my first year of secondary school(middle school), which is like 5 years ago? Just that I never uploaded or recorded my covers because I was too lazy and back then I never thought of uploading them. I just played for fun. :/
But yeah anyway, yup! And I'm going to upload more as and when I can! (And when I'm not feeling too lazy, because I plan to add lyrics to my covers too haha~)
Somehow I feel just a little tiny bit productive today, because I spent the afternoon working on this video, learning from scratch and trying to fit the words nicely with the video. Ah.~
I planned to go swimming today with the nice weather and all(not sunny, just cloudy) but well, I can always go tomorrow.~
Okay that's all. Back to reading the manhwa Crepuscule.~
Tuesday 15 April 2014
The rainbow cake from I am cafe!
So today I went out with my friends to try the rainbow cake from the I am cafe at Haji lane!
And here it is!
And here it is!
Looks really pretty right? Behind it is a slice of the red velvet cake. Each slice is $8.90. The taste is pretty okay, and in terms of taste, the red velvet cake wins, but the rainbow cake is not bad too. Of course in terms of appearance, the rainbow cake wins with all of its pretty colours. ^^" (Sometimes I feel like I'm writing for a food blog HAHAHA)
But yeah, that's quite a huge dessert we had today. @_@
Oh yeah, before dessert I had my lunch, cream and parsley pasta with chicken ham topping.
But yeah, that's quite a huge dessert we had today. @_@
Oh yeah, before dessert I had my lunch, cream and parsley pasta with chicken ham topping.
It was hmm. Average.
After lunch and dessert, we headed off to town for some window shopping!
Unfortunately I've already spent a LOT of my allowance yesterday as well as the previous outings, and I said to myself I have to save MORE money (not that I'm a spendthrift, I save a lot of money, and I hate spending money, but argh. Outings means spending money. @_@), so I didn't buy much.
But I did buy a dress in the end. ^^"
Here it is~:
Unfortunately I've already spent a LOT of my allowance yesterday as well as the previous outings, and I said to myself I have to save MORE money (not that I'm a spendthrift, I save a lot of money, and I hate spending money, but argh. Outings means spending money. @_@), so I didn't buy much.
But I did buy a dress in the end. ^^"
Here it is~:
Yup, that's me trying it on hehe. ^///^
Light greenish, is it called mint green?
Light greenish, is it called mint green?
That dress is bought from H&M at Orchard Street for $17.90.
A bit expensive for me. @_@
That's why I usually shop at bugis street. Things are much cheaper there. ^^||
It doesn't hurt my wallet too much too. Aha...;_;
*cough* Okay.
I'm feeling really sleepy now since I walked a lot today.
I'll just play some candy crush on facebook and then go sleep.~~
Oh yes.
A point to remember.
I finished watching Game of Thrones season 2!!
Wow.
Much brutal. Such violence. Much blood. Very...graphic. Much...mature scenes?
And much feels in the final episode of season 2.
Can't wait to watch season 3.~~
And I randomly searched the kagepro and konoha tag in tumblr a couple of days ago.
The fandom kills me. XD
Yokoso waga tainai he~~
A bit expensive for me. @_@
That's why I usually shop at bugis street. Things are much cheaper there. ^^||
It doesn't hurt my wallet too much too. Aha...;_;
*cough* Okay.
I'm feeling really sleepy now since I walked a lot today.
I'll just play some candy crush on facebook and then go sleep.~~
Oh yes.
A point to remember.
I finished watching Game of Thrones season 2!!
Wow.
Much brutal. Such violence. Much blood. Very...graphic. Much...mature scenes?
And much feels in the final episode of season 2.
Can't wait to watch season 3.~~
And I randomly searched the kagepro and konoha tag in tumblr a couple of days ago.
The fandom kills me. XD
Yokoso waga tainai he~~
The Wind Rises
The last time I posted was three days ago on the 12th of April...hehe, shows I'm getting a little lazy. ^^"
I'm back after a day spent with my sister and her bf. Our main plan today was to watch the movie, The Wind Rises.(Kaze Tachinu)
It is Hayao Miyazaki's last film before he retires(;_;). To me, when he retired, it's like saying to me, your childhood is over. Like, I've been watching his films as I grow up, and now as I turn 18 next month, he's retiring. So it's like, you know. ;_; It's time to say goodbye. And let us never forget all his wonderful, amazing pieces of work. Really, no amount of words can describe how beautiful his works are. One just have to watch it to see for oneself how awesome his works are.
Anyway, after I watched the film, my heart was filled with so many emotional feels, and I felt really lucky that I was able to see it on the big screen before it's taken down.
Both the animation and the scenery was so beautiful, and the romance in the story is heartwarming, and the music composed by Joe Hisasishi, ahh I really can't. ;_;
Naoko...
JUST LOOK AT THIS. ;_;
This picture alone is so bittersweet. ;w;
Yes, I have a frail heart for feels. ;_;
And as I'm writing this blog post, I'm listening the soundtracks for the wind rises. And as beautiful as all of them are, Naoko's theme songs are just...
They're making it rain in my heart. :')
Other than the movie, we also window shopped for my sister's prom dress. We picked out a few for consideration, but she's going to look for more.
Andddd we also had dessert! :)
We also walked out on the deck too in the night when the lights are on. It's quite a cool night.
After my sister has a boyfriend, I wasn't able to spend time with her alone together as easily as before already.
When she was still single, we'd first go new year clothes-shopping each year. It's like our "sisterly" thing.
We did that for a couple of years before she became attached, and from that on, it wasn't really easy to just go out with her alone anymore.
Not that I really want to, no I mean, well. I just miss those times, and sometimes it's just good to spend some time with your sister alone.
But whatever. She still comes and disturbs me plenty of times at home so it's fine.
But damn. I'm...spending money. I'm spending quite a bit of money this holiday. No...
Luckily holidays are ending this week.
At the same time I don't want school to start next week hahahaha.
It's going to be stressful T_T. Most of the days start as early as 8am and ends at 5pm! And because I signed up for an advanced module together with my friends, I have night classes once a week on Thursdays for 4 fours straight! 6-10pm! ;_;!!!!!
I'm kind of scared hahaha.
But I still have to live on!
It's like 12.30am now and I'm still waiting for my hair to dry.
It's almost dried out though.
I'm still meeting my friends tomorrow hahaha.
We're going to try the infamous rainbow cake from the I am cafe at Haji lane!
Looks good, and the reviews are mostly positive too.
Hope tomorrow will be a good day like today too. :)
It is Hayao Miyazaki's last film before he retires(;_;). To me, when he retired, it's like saying to me, your childhood is over. Like, I've been watching his films as I grow up, and now as I turn 18 next month, he's retiring. So it's like, you know. ;_; It's time to say goodbye. And let us never forget all his wonderful, amazing pieces of work. Really, no amount of words can describe how beautiful his works are. One just have to watch it to see for oneself how awesome his works are.
Anyway, after I watched the film, my heart was filled with so many emotional feels, and I felt really lucky that I was able to see it on the big screen before it's taken down.
Both the animation and the scenery was so beautiful, and the romance in the story is heartwarming, and the music composed by Joe Hisasishi, ahh I really can't. ;_;
Naoko...
JUST LOOK AT THIS. ;_;
Yes, I have a frail heart for feels. ;_;
And as I'm writing this blog post, I'm listening the soundtracks for the wind rises. And as beautiful as all of them are, Naoko's theme songs are just...
They're making it rain in my heart. :')
Other than the movie, we also window shopped for my sister's prom dress. We picked out a few for consideration, but she's going to look for more.
Andddd we also had dessert! :)
I forgot what the names are, but mine is the brown pastry with the ice cream on top. It's called "Little Fuji". It's delicious, but it's a really sweet dessert, so it's not for those who don't like sweet things! Hahaha.
The cafe is called St.Marc's cafe at Vivocity.
I didn't finish it though, I was feeling really full after dinner. :'(The cafe is called St.Marc's cafe at Vivocity.
We also walked out on the deck too in the night when the lights are on. It's quite a cool night.
After my sister has a boyfriend, I wasn't able to spend time with her alone together as easily as before already.
When she was still single, we'd first go new year clothes-shopping each year. It's like our "sisterly" thing.
We did that for a couple of years before she became attached, and from that on, it wasn't really easy to just go out with her alone anymore.
Not that I really want to, no I mean, well. I just miss those times, and sometimes it's just good to spend some time with your sister alone.
But whatever. She still comes and disturbs me plenty of times at home so it's fine.
But damn. I'm...spending money. I'm spending quite a bit of money this holiday. No...
Luckily holidays are ending this week.
At the same time I don't want school to start next week hahahaha.
It's going to be stressful T_T. Most of the days start as early as 8am and ends at 5pm! And because I signed up for an advanced module together with my friends, I have night classes once a week on Thursdays for 4 fours straight! 6-10pm! ;_;!!!!!
I'm kind of scared hahaha.
But I still have to live on!
It's like 12.30am now and I'm still waiting for my hair to dry.
It's almost dried out though.
I'm still meeting my friends tomorrow hahaha.
We're going to try the infamous rainbow cake from the I am cafe at Haji lane!
Looks good, and the reviews are mostly positive too.
Hope tomorrow will be a good day like today too. :)
Saturday 12 April 2014
Excited for Mekakucity Actors livestream!~
So I was wrong in the end hahaha. *nervous laugh*
But the episode is coming soon.
In less than...less than 3 hours!!! WOOHOO~~
Now I have two tabs open, one is the livestream from the japanese website, one is livestream from a fan's channel hahaha.
Just too excited.
I wonder which characters will appear?
Hopefully I see all of them animated. (Not only the opening and ending songs)
I want to see Konoha the most. >w<~~ Hahahaha
Yup, just a quick update.
Now I shall wait (im)patiently for the first episode to be broadcasted.~~~
But the episode is coming soon.
In less than...less than 3 hours!!! WOOHOO~~
Now I have two tabs open, one is the livestream from the japanese website, one is livestream from a fan's channel hahaha.
Just too excited.
I wonder which characters will appear?
Hopefully I see all of them animated. (Not only the opening and ending songs)
I want to see Konoha the most. >w<~~ Hahahaha
Yup, just a quick update.
Now I shall wait (im)patiently for the first episode to be broadcasted.~~~
Friday 11 April 2014
Back to a peaceful life.
Peaceful, as in, resting at home all day with no activities.
I've always lead this type of life when I had no activities with my friends, or school, or work.
Yes, I do find it boring a lot of times. But I'd still rather stay at home and be alone in my peaceful room. It's just something that I like to do since young.
I guess my introverted nature has a large part to play in this too.
Anyway, I went to the library a couple of hours ago, and I borrowed a lot of reader digest magazines.
I'm a reader digest fan, it's just that I'm really lazy to go the library and borrow them.
Yes, I'm a really lazy person. No, I'm not proud of it.
It's just that my image gives off that "hardworking, good girl" impression.
Half of it is correct. I AM a good girl. Like really.
I've never touched alcohol so far in my life, and I'm not going to touch it until I'm 18. Which is coming soon. (Next month :D)
But I AM lazy. Really.
So anyway *Cough*, I felt kind of guilty just bringing the whole lot home and leaving only one reader digest magazine on the shelf but IT'S NOT LIKE MANY PEOPLE READ THEM.
I think.
OKAY I'M SORRY.
I
I WILL RETURN THEM.
SOON.
*backs out slowly*
I opened the earliest issue out of the 5 of them, and I saw some motivational quotes from fellow readers:
1. Listening.
As humans we talk a lot, often forgetting to listen to others. We miss so many things when we keep talking, forgetting that listening makes life beautiful.
2. Forgiveness.
No matter what happens, forgiveness is always ours to choose. Although it is hard, the power of our conscience gives us peace when we forgive.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
So...as my knee is still recovering, I rest a lot at home today.
Nothing much is happening today...oh yeah, I took this on the way to buy lunch for my mother, brother and me:
I've always lead this type of life when I had no activities with my friends, or school, or work.
Yes, I do find it boring a lot of times. But I'd still rather stay at home and be alone in my peaceful room. It's just something that I like to do since young.
I guess my introverted nature has a large part to play in this too.
Anyway, I went to the library a couple of hours ago, and I borrowed a lot of reader digest magazines.
I'm a reader digest fan, it's just that I'm really lazy to go the library and borrow them.
Yes, I'm a really lazy person. No, I'm not proud of it.
It's just that my image gives off that "hardworking, good girl" impression.
Half of it is correct. I AM a good girl. Like really.
I've never touched alcohol so far in my life, and I'm not going to touch it until I'm 18. Which is coming soon. (Next month :D)
But I AM lazy. Really.
So anyway *Cough*, I felt kind of guilty just bringing the whole lot home and leaving only one reader digest magazine on the shelf but IT'S NOT LIKE MANY PEOPLE READ THEM.
I think.
OKAY I'M SORRY.
I
I WILL RETURN THEM.
SOON.
*backs out slowly*
I opened the earliest issue out of the 5 of them, and I saw some motivational quotes from fellow readers:
1. Listening.
As humans we talk a lot, often forgetting to listen to others. We miss so many things when we keep talking, forgetting that listening makes life beautiful.
2. Forgiveness.
No matter what happens, forgiveness is always ours to choose. Although it is hard, the power of our conscience gives us peace when we forgive.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
So...as my knee is still recovering, I rest a lot at home today.
Nothing much is happening today...oh yeah, I took this on the way to buy lunch for my mother, brother and me:
Is it nice? If the fallen leaves were to be replaced with flowers, I think it'll look really pretty.
Aha, but unfortunately the flowering season is over. :( Well at least in my country.
It's really quick, the trees only flower for 2-3 days. Even during the flowering period, the flowers drop really fast because of the wind. :/
I actually took a few more pictures of the flowering trees when I went for a walk with my mother before I went for the class chalet:
The last picture looks really pretty right? The tree is almost covered in flowers.
My mother told me that before I walked with her, the rest of the trees are just as pretty as the trees in the last picture.
The wind blew a lot of flowers off the trees before I came.
I could only imagine how pretty the sight is if all the trees were the same as the trees above, pink and white flowers covering the whole tree..
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
ANIME SECTION.
So they said that Mekakucity Actors will broadcast at 12 April, midnight.
Does that mean....IT'S GONNA BROADCAST TONIGHT AT MIDNIGHT?! *W*
See now it is 11 April. So at midnight, it will be 12 April.
So if I'm right...the first episode of Mekakucity Actors is going to broadcast in less than 2 hours time!!! *W*
Hopefully...I'll be staying up to wait.~~~
I checked out Soul Eater Not! first episode too, and as expected, it is TOTALLY different from the main Soul Eater series.
Well that's exactly why the name is Soul eater NOT, I guess. :/
But I actually kind of like it, and the three main characters too, so I'll keep watching.
What else...so in my spring anime 2014 watchlist, there is:
Mekakucity Actors (First one in my list *_*)
Mekakucity Actors (First one in my list *_*)
Haikyuu!!!!! *w*
Fairy Tail S2!
Soul Eater Not!
One week friends (Looks like a feels anime, like KEY animes (not from Key though))
Captain Earth (Got attracted by the bgm, and the plot and characters look pretty interesting)
Fairy Tail S2!
Soul Eater Not!
One week friends (Looks like a feels anime, like KEY animes (not from Key though))
Captain Earth (Got attracted by the bgm, and the plot and characters look pretty interesting)
I'm also keeping track of Little Busters! Ex but the episodes are on a monthly release basis... so far there are 3 episodes released, the fourth one is coming at the end of this month. And in this fourth episode this month, Saya's route will conclude. I will be ready for tears. ;w;
I think that's all so far...6 anime. I probably won't be able to watch/keep up with so many when school starts anyway, so I'll watch other anime if they have good reputation or I have a sudden interest in them...yes it happens a lot of times. XD Like Natsume yuujinchou and tsuritama...haha.
Mekakucity Actors and Haikyuu are the top 2 in my list though. Have been waiting for their anime for a long time now.
So far that's about it...
Thursday 10 April 2014
Day 2 of class chalet yesterday! And conclusion.
Yesterday, I met my friend again at JE station at 9am then headed down all the way to the east at Pasir Ris!! X.X
I wore a knee guard the whole day because I fell down at home and landed directly on my right knee, so my full body weight was on my right knee alone. So you can imagine the impact and pressure my right knee suffered. :'( Felt a bit weird with it but I got used to it.
So we shopped at NTUC(our local supermarket) and bought some large water bottles, snacks and serviettes for the chalet. We also bought instant noodles for our lunch which we never ate in the end hahaha. Then we met the rest of our friends at 10.55am.
We missed the first shuttle bus because we thought it wasn't ours, and we had to wait for awhile. =.= So we went to eat ice cream at Mcdonalds until the next shuttle bus came.
Which...brought us to some unknown resort which isn't ours at all.
So like yesterday(sigh), we walked and walked, and tried to find our way about in that deserted, unknown place away from civilization, this time under the hot sun, and we finally decided to take the public transport bus back to Pasir Ris, then take the train back to Tampines, THEN take the bus 29 all the way down to OUR chalet. =_=
Ah. Yet another mini adventure trying to go to our creepy chalet.
So when we arrived, we were all hot and sticky and sweaty from the hot sun, and we all escaped into the air-conditioned bedroom first. X.X
After that while waiting for another friend to come, three of my friends and I decided to walk a bit and explore the place.
So in the nice weather, we walked along and see the sea.~
I uploaded more photos on my facebook of the sea but yeah basically this is how it looks like.
Then we went back and played some games organized by one of my friends.
Since I injured my knee (X.X), I didn't play the games because it involves running and jumping.
But it was still very fun to watch them play. ^^
I helped out with the timing and recording of the games too.
In the evening, it started raining heavily, so we couldn't start our BBQ in time. (Every class chalet needs a BBQ! XD)
So while waiting, we decided to take some group photos.~
I wore a knee guard the whole day because I fell down at home and landed directly on my right knee, so my full body weight was on my right knee alone. So you can imagine the impact and pressure my right knee suffered. :'( Felt a bit weird with it but I got used to it.
So we shopped at NTUC(our local supermarket) and bought some large water bottles, snacks and serviettes for the chalet. We also bought instant noodles for our lunch which we never ate in the end hahaha. Then we met the rest of our friends at 10.55am.
We missed the first shuttle bus because we thought it wasn't ours, and we had to wait for awhile. =.= So we went to eat ice cream at Mcdonalds until the next shuttle bus came.
Which...brought us to some unknown resort which isn't ours at all.
So like yesterday(sigh), we walked and walked, and tried to find our way about in that deserted, unknown place away from civilization, this time under the hot sun, and we finally decided to take the public transport bus back to Pasir Ris, then take the train back to Tampines, THEN take the bus 29 all the way down to OUR chalet. =_=
Ah. Yet another mini adventure trying to go to our creepy chalet.
So when we arrived, we were all hot and sticky and sweaty from the hot sun, and we all escaped into the air-conditioned bedroom first. X.X
After that while waiting for another friend to come, three of my friends and I decided to walk a bit and explore the place.
So in the nice weather, we walked along and see the sea.~
Aha, that's me. XD
Then we went back and played some games organized by one of my friends.
Since I injured my knee (X.X), I didn't play the games because it involves running and jumping.
But it was still very fun to watch them play. ^^
I helped out with the timing and recording of the games too.
In the evening, it started raining heavily, so we couldn't start our BBQ in time. (Every class chalet needs a BBQ! XD)
So while waiting, we decided to take some group photos.~
Again, more photos on my facebook. I just selected some haha.
Pity we didn't manage to get a full class photo. :'(
So after that. the rain cleared, and we have our night BBQ!
The guys were mainly in charge of the cooking and starting of the fire, while the rest of us girls just sat and waited for the food to be cooked HAHAHA.
I'm never good at this kind of BBQ stuff, and the food I cooked will all be burnt anyway. >.<
So there was a lot of food for 20 people. We have chicken wings, cream puff, chicken satay, sausages, crab sticks, stingray with spicy sauce, marshmallows, sweet potato, sweet corn, salad, otah, fishballs, nuggets, fried rice(that is overcooked and smells and tastes weird D:), fried beehoone (also overcooked like fried rice but just slightly better), and coke.
Pity we didn't manage to get a full class photo. :'(
So after that. the rain cleared, and we have our night BBQ!
The guys were mainly in charge of the cooking and starting of the fire, while the rest of us girls just sat and waited for the food to be cooked HAHAHA.
I'm never good at this kind of BBQ stuff, and the food I cooked will all be burnt anyway. >.<
So there was a lot of food for 20 people. We have chicken wings, cream puff, chicken satay, sausages, crab sticks, stingray with spicy sauce, marshmallows, sweet potato, sweet corn, salad, otah, fishballs, nuggets, fried rice(that is overcooked and smells and tastes weird D:), fried beehoone (also overcooked like fried rice but just slightly better), and coke.
I ate a bit of most of the stuff. Like literally just a bit. Because to be honest I don't like eating BBQ food because it's really unhealthy and has a lot of burnt parts. :x
But I love the cream puffs! Really delicious.
They were put in the freezer before they were eaten, and when I ate it, it's like eating ice cream inside!
After the BBQ, we gathered around and played some class bonding games under the night sky with no stars but only passing planes, and in front of the sea with passing boats.
Then my friend and I left at about 9.15pm and we cabbed home.
Anddd that concludes my first class chalet thus far. It was a pain trying to get to the chalet but nevertheless still quite an experience to treasure hehehe.
After the BBQ, we gathered around and played some class bonding games under the night sky with no stars but only passing planes, and in front of the sea with passing boats.
Then my friend and I left at about 9.15pm and we cabbed home.
Anddd that concludes my first class chalet thus far. It was a pain trying to get to the chalet but nevertheless still quite an experience to treasure hehehe.
These are the photos from day 1 two days back:
The yogurt that my friend treated us before going to the chalet. ^^~
A few pictures I took of the chalet:
Yep, long post! Tired, but well. Something that I did for the past two days...
Tuesday 8 April 2014
First day of class chalet over!
So the first day of my first class chalet ever comes to an end. (Nope I'm not staying overnight there.)
And...boy. It was...epic.
Like. Yeah. Epic.
A bit of adventure getting there. (the chalet)
Let me just blog what I did today in full detail while waiting for my hair to dry before I go to sleep.
So today I woke up at 7.40am to give myself enough time to use the laptop and to prepare myself to go out to meet my two friends at the station at 11am.
We took the train down to Bugis station, which took us roughly half an hour plus 10 minutes, and we went to eat Astons for lunch.
I had chargrill chicken, with mashed potato and mac and cheese for side dishes. I had cafe mocha as my drink. (The iced lemon tea wasn't available! T^T)
After that, my friend treated us to Berrylite's yogurt, since she bought a coupon. How nice of her! ^^~
The yogurt was nice. We chose tropical flavour for both yogurts (we ordered two cups of yogurt).
The only other option at that time was pistachio and original, but we cannot chose the original flavour when we're using the coupon. (How weird. :/)
So anyway, we're allowed to choose three toppings for each cup; so for one cup, we chose marshmallow, fruity pebbles and oreo crumbs. (Mainly all dry toppings)
For the other cup, we chose honey balls, peach and uhm...some white cubes? All "wet" toppings. The yogurt with the "wet" toppings melted much faster than the one with the dry toppings!!
After that, we headed down to Bugis street to do some shopping. My friends bought clothes, while I bought myself a pair of shoes to wear to school, and we bought some accessories together. (All pictures tomorrow! Or the day after. I think I'll be REALLY tired tomorrow. I'll be out for the whole day and come back late at night!)
After that, we took the train down to Tampines to meet another friend, then we decided to cab down to the chalet at Changi. (All the way at the east!)
Even in the taxi when nearing that place, we got lost. My friends kept calling the other two friends who were already there what the address of the chalet was, and the taxi driver and us were all getting stressed and kept going around trying to find the chalet! (It's actually quite a humorous situation, we kept laughing and getting impatient at the same time. XDD)
In the end, the taxi driver dropped us at some main gate, and we wandered around, trying to find the chalet.
At that time, it even started to rain, and all our shoes got soaked in the end, and man...the chalet is just really out of place!
We walked and walked and walked in the rain for a good half an hour, going to really weird and eerie places like the Changi nursing home and the Changi hospital, and the place looks just really creepy. Hell, I will be damn scared walking there alone in the night. I think I'll even cry. ;_;
We walked in pairs, sharing umbrellas, and I clung to my friend the whole time, not daring to look at the empty chalets and especially into the dark windows.
Finally, we waited at a pier, and one of my friends came down to fetch us to the chalet. We realized that we actually kept walking in big rounds just trying to find the chalet. == My head feels heavy after walking so long in the rain. (It was pouring one time too) Hopefully I don't fall sick. ==
So when we reached the chalet...it was. Well. Okay.
Ordinary.
Creepy.
Looks really scary.
And very open.
Only the bedrooms are air-conditioned. And it's just one floor. No staircase or anything. ;_; Ah, we just have to be satisfied with what we have. Not a very good experience for my first class chalet though. ;_;
So, with the few hours I spent there, I mostly watched some random videos with my friend, and played a balloon game, where the losing team has to drink some vodka or coke as forfeit haha. But to be honest, even though I did enjoyed myself today, with the good lunch and time spent with my friends and all, but my right knee isn't in top condition. So..towards the end of the day, I had to limp-walk. I could still walk, and it didn't hurt THAT much, but climbing stairs and putting pressure on my knee...yeah, it hurts. Plus I found out that my right knee has some swelling when I reached home at like 9pm. No wonder it hurts. My mother rubbed some medicine on my knee and it BURNS LIKE HELL. ><
Damn. Gonna need to wear a knee guard tomorrow. I'll be out for the whole day. :/ It's almost 11pm now and I'm really tired and sleepy. Guess I'll go to sleep...
And...boy. It was...epic.
Like. Yeah. Epic.
A bit of adventure getting there. (the chalet)
Let me just blog what I did today in full detail while waiting for my hair to dry before I go to sleep.
So today I woke up at 7.40am to give myself enough time to use the laptop and to prepare myself to go out to meet my two friends at the station at 11am.
We took the train down to Bugis station, which took us roughly half an hour plus 10 minutes, and we went to eat Astons for lunch.
I had chargrill chicken, with mashed potato and mac and cheese for side dishes. I had cafe mocha as my drink. (The iced lemon tea wasn't available! T^T)
After that, my friend treated us to Berrylite's yogurt, since she bought a coupon. How nice of her! ^^~
The yogurt was nice. We chose tropical flavour for both yogurts (we ordered two cups of yogurt).
The only other option at that time was pistachio and original, but we cannot chose the original flavour when we're using the coupon. (How weird. :/)
So anyway, we're allowed to choose three toppings for each cup; so for one cup, we chose marshmallow, fruity pebbles and oreo crumbs. (Mainly all dry toppings)
For the other cup, we chose honey balls, peach and uhm...some white cubes? All "wet" toppings. The yogurt with the "wet" toppings melted much faster than the one with the dry toppings!!
After that, we headed down to Bugis street to do some shopping. My friends bought clothes, while I bought myself a pair of shoes to wear to school, and we bought some accessories together. (All pictures tomorrow! Or the day after. I think I'll be REALLY tired tomorrow. I'll be out for the whole day and come back late at night!)
After that, we took the train down to Tampines to meet another friend, then we decided to cab down to the chalet at Changi. (All the way at the east!)
Even in the taxi when nearing that place, we got lost. My friends kept calling the other two friends who were already there what the address of the chalet was, and the taxi driver and us were all getting stressed and kept going around trying to find the chalet! (It's actually quite a humorous situation, we kept laughing and getting impatient at the same time. XDD)
In the end, the taxi driver dropped us at some main gate, and we wandered around, trying to find the chalet.
At that time, it even started to rain, and all our shoes got soaked in the end, and man...the chalet is just really out of place!
We walked and walked and walked in the rain for a good half an hour, going to really weird and eerie places like the Changi nursing home and the Changi hospital, and the place looks just really creepy. Hell, I will be damn scared walking there alone in the night. I think I'll even cry. ;_;
We walked in pairs, sharing umbrellas, and I clung to my friend the whole time, not daring to look at the empty chalets and especially into the dark windows.
Finally, we waited at a pier, and one of my friends came down to fetch us to the chalet. We realized that we actually kept walking in big rounds just trying to find the chalet. == My head feels heavy after walking so long in the rain. (It was pouring one time too) Hopefully I don't fall sick. ==
So when we reached the chalet...it was. Well. Okay.
Ordinary.
Creepy.
Looks really scary.
And very open.
Only the bedrooms are air-conditioned. And it's just one floor. No staircase or anything. ;_; Ah, we just have to be satisfied with what we have. Not a very good experience for my first class chalet though. ;_;
So, with the few hours I spent there, I mostly watched some random videos with my friend, and played a balloon game, where the losing team has to drink some vodka or coke as forfeit haha. But to be honest, even though I did enjoyed myself today, with the good lunch and time spent with my friends and all, but my right knee isn't in top condition. So..towards the end of the day, I had to limp-walk. I could still walk, and it didn't hurt THAT much, but climbing stairs and putting pressure on my knee...yeah, it hurts. Plus I found out that my right knee has some swelling when I reached home at like 9pm. No wonder it hurts. My mother rubbed some medicine on my knee and it BURNS LIKE HELL. ><
Damn. Gonna need to wear a knee guard tomorrow. I'll be out for the whole day. :/ It's almost 11pm now and I'm really tired and sleepy. Guess I'll go to sleep...
Monday 7 April 2014
As April continues...
The first Monday of April arrives, and the spring season continues.
The entrance to the stairs is actually found over here:
At the BBQ pits near my house! Ahahaha. XD
Yup, I'm bored. =_=
But it's okay.
Tomorrow and the day after, I'm going to a class chalet! My first class chalet ever! (Yup, I like to stay at home so I don't really have much of a life.)
I don't know what we're going to do over there but I hope that the chalet is a nice place.
And we're having BBQ on Wednesday night.~
It's quite far away though, all the way at the east, and I stay at the west. :/
But I don't really care anymore. I spent a LOT of days just slacking at home.
My life is pretty much the same as that girl from the watamote anime.
I don't even care anymore. At least I have something to do for the next two days.
After that next monday, I'm going to watch The Wind Rises with my sister and her bf!
So I do have plans for the next few days.
But most of the time I'm still lazing around.~
In other news, the first episode of Haikyuu(HQ!) is out yesterday!!
Excited.~
I went down to take a little walk in the afternoon under the blazing hot sun, and I found this creepy stairs here...
What could it lead down to? What is under there?!
It's actually just the carpark ahaha. (I was bored. =.=)The entrance to the stairs is actually found over here:
Yup, I'm bored. =_=
But it's okay.
Tomorrow and the day after, I'm going to a class chalet! My first class chalet ever! (Yup, I like to stay at home so I don't really have much of a life.)
I don't know what we're going to do over there but I hope that the chalet is a nice place.
And we're having BBQ on Wednesday night.~
It's quite far away though, all the way at the east, and I stay at the west. :/
But I don't really care anymore. I spent a LOT of days just slacking at home.
My life is pretty much the same as that girl from the watamote anime.
I don't even care anymore. At least I have something to do for the next two days.
After that next monday, I'm going to watch The Wind Rises with my sister and her bf!
So I do have plans for the next few days.
But most of the time I'm still lazing around.~
In other news, the first episode of Haikyuu(HQ!) is out yesterday!!
Excited.~
Sunday 6 April 2014
The first Sunday of April!
Yesterday was the 5th of April.
And today, the 6th.
Which means THERE IS ONLY LESS THAN A MONTH LEFT BEFORE I TURN 18!!!
OH NO.
THIS IS DISASTROUS.
I DON'T WANT TO TURN 18.
I DON'T WANT TO GROW OLDER.
DAMN IT.
DAMN IT ALLLLLLLLLLL. *fire rage in the background*
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*cough* Sorry, I got carried away.
This morning, my father brought me downstairs to the carpark nearby to see the flowering trees.
Yep, spring is here.
May not be as beautiful as the cherry blossoms in Japan, but they are still beautiful and really gives off that "spring" atmosphere.
Since I'm born in May, I guess...this is my season? Born in spring, a beautiful, sweet season of flowers and bird chirpings everywhere...although my favourite season is winter.
[*~*Anime section here*~*]
And today, the 6th.
Which means THERE IS ONLY LESS THAN A MONTH LEFT BEFORE I TURN 18!!!
OH NO.
THIS IS DISASTROUS.
I DON'T WANT TO TURN 18.
I DON'T WANT TO GROW OLDER.
DAMN IT.
DAMN IT ALLLLLLLLLLL. *fire rage in the background*
*******************************************
*cough* Sorry, I got carried away.
This morning, my father brought me downstairs to the carpark nearby to see the flowering trees.
Yep, spring is here.
May not be as beautiful as the cherry blossoms in Japan, but they are still beautiful and really gives off that "spring" atmosphere.
Since I'm born in May, I guess...this is my season? Born in spring, a beautiful, sweet season of flowers and bird chirpings everywhere...although my favourite season is winter.
[*~*Anime section here*~*]
Saturday 5 April 2014
What happened yesterday,
My friend came over yesterday to my place at 9.30am to play :D
It was a really, really warm day, even in the morning at only 9.30am.
So when we entered my room, we shut the door, closed all the windows and switched on the aircon.
I first showed her the Shounen Jump magazine my sister bought for me from Japan. (I even showed her the wrapper as well hahaha)
After flipping through the pages and reading it for about a few minutes or so(because it's all in Japanese and our mother tongue is not Japanese haha), we sat down on the floor to talk.
In the peace and quiet of my cooled room, I told her I have a confession to make. (Gonna write down the real confession, not the first joke confession. The joke confession was that I like her in a more-than-friends way hahahahaha.)
I told her that even when she told me her real GPA score and I was happy for her and congratulated her(and I AM truly glad for her), a part of me still refuses to believe that that was her true score. (Refer here) After saying that, I felt really bitter and disappointed at myself. How could I not learn to accept that she has done exceedingly well? And after she hid it in order to prevent exactly THIS, which in the end, still happens because of my feelings!
She nodded. "I know. After we have been apart for only a year, and I am already doing so well and am far away from you."
Amazing. After being apart for a year, you still know exactly what I'm thinking and feeling inside.
I replied "I just wanted to let you know how I felt. I just wanted to let it out. I'm-" (I'm sorry)
Those two words never came out. And all that time I could never maintain eye contact with her for more than a second.
There was a pause.
"Ushiro." She smiled.(Means back in Japanese)
"Huh? "I asked, seeing her finger spinning around in a circle.
"What do you want to do with my back-"
Then she started to massage my back.
"Otsukaresamadeshita!"(Means good work in Japanese) She said in a cheerful tone.
(Ah...) I stared silently at the wall, my shoulders slowly relaxing as she massaged.
So that's how it is.
After that, I brought another chair into my room, and we shared our books that we borrowed from the library.
I showed her Quiet, a book about introverts, and she showed me a book that talks about how the students in a school have to kill all their classmates except themselves in order to survive, which reminded me of the anime Dangan Ronpa, which I'm pretty sure made a lot of references to this book. (I forgot the title X.X)
Then we did many other things. We chatted, sang together, played the piano together, ate lunch together (I ate a waffle and she ate an apple pie, then we ate ice cream), tested our strength against each other (XD), fought each other(rough play).
It was the simple stuff that I missed doing with her.
When it was time for her to go at 3.30pm, (as much as she can come early, she usually needs to leave earlier too) I left with her to walk her up to the station.
She looked at me in the eyes and asked quietly, "About your mother's checkup..." (I told her about my mother going for her checkup before she came here.)
"I know" I replied. "I'm going to ask her when I get back home. I don't how how to ask her though."
"Just ask 'So, how did the checkup go?' Or something like that" She replied.
"Mm" I nodded.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
By the afternoon, it was so warm that by the time I reached back home, my face was red and I was sweating.
I decided to leave the asking till later, and escaped back into my air-conditioned room first.
When I cooled down an hour later, I approached my mother, who was playing candy crush in my father's phone.
After some small chat and joking around with her, I casually, with a nervous heart, asked her "So, how did the checkup go?"
She told me that the doctors found something growing inside her cervix, and told me that they had did a scan at that area, and says the results will be out soon. Then she assured me again that there is nothing to worry about.
"...okay". She's not specific enough!
Later at night, I decided to have a second try. I pulled my father into my room, away from my mother and asked him how the checkup was.
"Why don't you ask your mother?" He asked, and called my mother in.
Oh damn. I facepalmed.
NO PA YOU GAVE IT AWAY THIS WAS EXACTLY THE REASON WHY I PULLED YOU INTO MY ROOM BECAUSE I ONLY WANTED TO ASK YOU NOT HER.
So anyway, he drew the womb and ovaries on my whiteboard, and tried to explain it to me.
"Ah..." I said. "Something small? Should be nothing to worry about."
Wrong. ANYTHING foreign growing inside our bodies which requires a checkup all the way to the hospital and needing medical scans and follow-ups etc. is something worth worrying about. I only said that to assure my parents that I'm not being overly worried or what, which I AM not overly worried, but still worried.
I decided to ask the last person who was there with them, the medical nurse, my sister, who has randomly barged into my room as she always does even though I keep telling her NOT to every single time because it gives me a mini heart attack every time but apparently my words always falls on deaf ears, and plopped herself on my bed and turned on the fan towards her at maximum speed.
And she keep sneezing because the fan is at her at max speed JUST AFTER SHE SHOWERED.
Not commenting on that.
"And your point is?" She asked, not looking up as she continued her work.
"My point is" I paused momentarily, looking straight at her. "I want to know what the checkup is for and what is it about."
"What do you know about the checkup?"
"I do know that there is something growing in mama's womb area. That's all. They weren't being specific enough to me."
Apparently even my sister does not have the specifics or details about the "checkup" too. (she says it's not a checkup) Whatever she could tell me, I already knew, except for the new information that my mother will be going back on the 22nd of April to receive her results etc.
Then she told me about how papa joked to her that mama is pregnant again, since they're at the womb and ovaries section, and I laughed, saying even though I wanted a younger sibling, I didn't want a sibling that is 18 years younger than me.
It's impossible anyway. Mama has already hit menopause, and papa is too old to do it anymore. *shrugs*
So yeah, Ayano.
It's totally not a "normal, general" checkup at all.
Other than that, I'm almost done watching the first season of the Game of Thrones!! Yeah!! Should hurry up and finish all three season of the game of Thrones before the fourth season comes. (Or has already came, idk, but I should hurry up before all the spoilers flood in.)
And I'm only in the first season, but when Prince Joffrey becomes king, and orders the head of Sansa's father, hand of the king Ned Stark, even after her pleas for his mercy with that smug smile on his handsome face, I don't know if I'm able to stand watching the rest of the seasons with that bastard Joffrey as king of the seven kingdoms.
No wonder people hate King Joffrey so, so much.
And I am going to be one of them too.
It was a really, really warm day, even in the morning at only 9.30am.
So when we entered my room, we shut the door, closed all the windows and switched on the aircon.
I first showed her the Shounen Jump magazine my sister bought for me from Japan. (I even showed her the wrapper as well hahaha)
After flipping through the pages and reading it for about a few minutes or so(because it's all in Japanese and our mother tongue is not Japanese haha), we sat down on the floor to talk.
In the peace and quiet of my cooled room, I told her I have a confession to make. (Gonna write down the real confession, not the first joke confession. The joke confession was that I like her in a more-than-friends way hahahahaha.)
I told her that even when she told me her real GPA score and I was happy for her and congratulated her(and I AM truly glad for her), a part of me still refuses to believe that that was her true score. (Refer here) After saying that, I felt really bitter and disappointed at myself. How could I not learn to accept that she has done exceedingly well? And after she hid it in order to prevent exactly THIS, which in the end, still happens because of my feelings!
She nodded. "I know. After we have been apart for only a year, and I am already doing so well and am far away from you."
Amazing. After being apart for a year, you still know exactly what I'm thinking and feeling inside.
I replied "I just wanted to let you know how I felt. I just wanted to let it out. I'm-" (I'm sorry)
Those two words never came out. And all that time I could never maintain eye contact with her for more than a second.
There was a pause.
"Ushiro." She smiled.(Means back in Japanese)
"Huh? "I asked, seeing her finger spinning around in a circle.
"What do you want to do with my back-"
Then she started to massage my back.
"Otsukaresamadeshita!"(Means good work in Japanese) She said in a cheerful tone.
(Ah...) I stared silently at the wall, my shoulders slowly relaxing as she massaged.
So that's how it is.
After that, I brought another chair into my room, and we shared our books that we borrowed from the library.
I showed her Quiet, a book about introverts, and she showed me a book that talks about how the students in a school have to kill all their classmates except themselves in order to survive, which reminded me of the anime Dangan Ronpa, which I'm pretty sure made a lot of references to this book. (I forgot the title X.X)
Then we did many other things. We chatted, sang together, played the piano together, ate lunch together (I ate a waffle and she ate an apple pie, then we ate ice cream), tested our strength against each other (XD), fought each other(rough play).
It was the simple stuff that I missed doing with her.
When it was time for her to go at 3.30pm, (as much as she can come early, she usually needs to leave earlier too) I left with her to walk her up to the station.
She looked at me in the eyes and asked quietly, "About your mother's checkup..." (I told her about my mother going for her checkup before she came here.)
"I know" I replied. "I'm going to ask her when I get back home. I don't how how to ask her though."
"Just ask 'So, how did the checkup go?' Or something like that" She replied.
"Mm" I nodded.
~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
By the afternoon, it was so warm that by the time I reached back home, my face was red and I was sweating.
I decided to leave the asking till later, and escaped back into my air-conditioned room first.
When I cooled down an hour later, I approached my mother, who was playing candy crush in my father's phone.
After some small chat and joking around with her, I casually, with a nervous heart, asked her "So, how did the checkup go?"
She told me that the doctors found something growing inside her cervix, and told me that they had did a scan at that area, and says the results will be out soon. Then she assured me again that there is nothing to worry about.
"...okay". She's not specific enough!
Later at night, I decided to have a second try. I pulled my father into my room, away from my mother and asked him how the checkup was.
"Why don't you ask your mother?" He asked, and called my mother in.
Oh damn. I facepalmed.
NO PA YOU GAVE IT AWAY THIS WAS EXACTLY THE REASON WHY I PULLED YOU INTO MY ROOM BECAUSE I ONLY WANTED TO ASK YOU NOT HER.
So anyway, he drew the womb and ovaries on my whiteboard, and tried to explain it to me.
"Ah..." I said. "Something small? Should be nothing to worry about."
Wrong. ANYTHING foreign growing inside our bodies which requires a checkup all the way to the hospital and needing medical scans and follow-ups etc. is something worth worrying about. I only said that to assure my parents that I'm not being overly worried or what, which I AM not overly worried, but still worried.
I decided to ask the last person who was there with them, the medical nurse, my sister, who has randomly barged into my room as she always does even though I keep telling her NOT to every single time because it gives me a mini heart attack every time but apparently my words always falls on deaf ears, and plopped herself on my bed and turned on the fan towards her at maximum speed.
And she keep sneezing because the fan is at her at max speed JUST AFTER SHE SHOWERED.
Not commenting on that.
"And your point is?" She asked, not looking up as she continued her work.
"My point is" I paused momentarily, looking straight at her. "I want to know what the checkup is for and what is it about."
"What do you know about the checkup?"
"I do know that there is something growing in mama's womb area. That's all. They weren't being specific enough to me."
Apparently even my sister does not have the specifics or details about the "checkup" too. (she says it's not a checkup) Whatever she could tell me, I already knew, except for the new information that my mother will be going back on the 22nd of April to receive her results etc.
Then she told me about how papa joked to her that mama is pregnant again, since they're at the womb and ovaries section, and I laughed, saying even though I wanted a younger sibling, I didn't want a sibling that is 18 years younger than me.
It's impossible anyway. Mama has already hit menopause, and papa is too old to do it anymore. *shrugs*
So yeah, Ayano.
It's totally not a "normal, general" checkup at all.
Other than that, I'm almost done watching the first season of the Game of Thrones!! Yeah!! Should hurry up and finish all three season of the game of Thrones before the fourth season comes. (Or has already came, idk, but I should hurry up before all the spoilers flood in.)
And I'm only in the first season, but when Prince Joffrey becomes king, and orders the head of Sansa's father, hand of the king Ned Stark, even after her pleas for his mercy with that smug smile on his handsome face, I don't know if I'm able to stand watching the rest of the seasons with that bastard Joffrey as king of the seven kingdoms.
No wonder people hate King Joffrey so, so much.
And I am going to be one of them too.
Thursday 3 April 2014
Quick update at night
Just watched the first two episodes of the Games of Thrones season 1.
And so far...it was epic.
Can't wait to see more tomorrow.
My friend's also coming over tomorrow!
I can't wait to see her.
No matter what, she's still my best friend, and I feel the most comfortable with her around.
We'll talk a lot, play the piano, sing lots of vocaloid songs, eat together, do many things that...we like to do together.
Tomorrow will finally be a day worth waking to.
And so far...it was epic.
Can't wait to see more tomorrow.
My friend's also coming over tomorrow!
I can't wait to see her.
No matter what, she's still my best friend, and I feel the most comfortable with her around.
We'll talk a lot, play the piano, sing lots of vocaloid songs, eat together, do many things that...we like to do together.
Tomorrow will finally be a day worth waking to.
That voice in my head.
I am an introvert.
In a world where humans constantly judge each other, I keep my mouth shut more than I speak.
In a group, I am one of those who speaks less, or rarely speaks at all in a more unfamiliar group.
Outside, I have an exterior of quiet, peace, and calm.
Inside, I often have a war going on inside my brain.
I have an inner voice in me.
Well, all of us have our own inner voices.
But my inner voice tends to have a mind of its own.
Each day, from the most trivial stuff to the most serious decisions, I would often argue with that inner voice inside my mind.
Not all the time, of course. Sometimes we will agree on my actions immediately without word; other times I would think about what I should do, and my brain will generate some options, and we will start arguing over those options.
The conversations are generally funny but at the same time I found it really interesting.
Why do you always argue with me?! I often asked my inner voice. Aren't we supposed to be one and work together?
I'd like to think that my inner voice belongs to a little person residing in my mind. When we argue, that little person really seems to have a character of its own.
So I was lying on my bed just now thinking about how I was excluded out from the invitations to my secondary(middle) school's 20th anniversary event.[Show]
I thought about how a classmate of mine got called back by the school's vice principal herself to give a 7-10 minute speech, and how she was really smart, excelled at her CCA and had lots of good friends. And I didn't really like her from the start when I first met her at secondary 1, and I'm sure she didn't really like me or thought little of me too, although I guess it changed as we grew older.
Then I thought about how I saw a picture of my best friend on Facebook going on stage to receive some award, and how she made it to the Director's list because of her extremely good GPA.
I thought about how ahead my friends were of me in terms of academics. I thought about how active they were as I see my instagram flooded with their fun activities.
I thought about how I lazed around at home everyday during the holidays, only going out occasionally with my friends, and how I was being unproductive.
I laid there, in my silent, air-conditioned room, and the seconds ticked by. Slowly, that question surfaced in my mind.
Why was I even born?
I was achieving nothing. I have mediocre grades, mediocre looks, few friends to hang out with, no extra co-curricular activities to do in the school holidays; I still don't even know what I want to do in my life.
Don't I sound such a boring person in life? With a boring life. Just lazing around at home all day playing games on Facebook, occasionally going to the library to borrow one or two books to read at home.
If the human race were to experience all kinds of disasters on the earth and food, water and even clean air supply is running low right now, I can tell that I'll be one of the first people they will get rid off, because I'm so unproductive and useless.
After that question, comes my reply.
Heck, I didn't even chose to come here. I'm something that shouldn't even exist.
Which was technically true. Those weren't just self-pitying thoughts. I am an accident, which is why my father seemingly showed more love towards me than my other two siblings, which is definitely NOT true. He loves all of us equally, just that it seems like he showed more love towards me.
Contrary to popular thoughts that it's just because I'm his youngest child, which may be partly true, but it was more to make up for the fact that I was unplanned, whereas my two older siblings were planned.
So, an unplanned child, achieving nothing so far in her tertiary life, with mediocre grades, a non-active social life, and academically average compared to her two older siblings who are academically smarter, have better looks and have a more social life than me.
Yet, I am still here. I said to myself bitterly. I didn't contract any life-threatening diseases before, and I haven't gotten into anything that threatens to take my life away. Fate wants me to keep living.
THEN KEEP ON LIVING!!!
My inner voice shouted at me.
There are youth your age, children even younger than you, who have a goal in their minds, have an even stronger spirit than you, yet lost their lives to cancer, tumors, or other life threatening illnesses, or are involved in some tragic disasters, and here you are lamenting to yourself how pitiful you are, which YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, and wallowing in self pity when you can do so many things!! You have a healthy body, not easily prone to illnesses, a set of normal arms and legs, and you can think and speak normally. All five senses are working normally. Already you can do so many things that you often take for granted! If you don't know what you want to do, FINE! Just keep studying in your course first! Slowly figure out what you want to do! The least you can do is to keep living!! Don't give up on life so easily! You have something, something that many other people cannot afford to have! LIFE! KEEP LIVING!!!!
Yes.
This is the kind of thing that my inner voice will say to me.
It will often shout and shoot back at me, and it can be really frank.
That's why I think that my inner voice has a personality of its own.
So I replied to my inner voice:
Yeah. I know.
I'm still walking foward, even now. My life energy is still there.
You don't see me down on the ground, do you?
Because even then, I'm still walking.
My footprints are there.
No matter how life pushes me back, I will show life how strong I am.
One step foward after another.
As long as you see me take one step foward,
As long as you don't see me stop,
The game is not over.
In a world where humans constantly judge each other, I keep my mouth shut more than I speak.
In a group, I am one of those who speaks less, or rarely speaks at all in a more unfamiliar group.
Outside, I have an exterior of quiet, peace, and calm.
Inside, I often have a war going on inside my brain.
I have an inner voice in me.
Well, all of us have our own inner voices.
But my inner voice tends to have a mind of its own.
Each day, from the most trivial stuff to the most serious decisions, I would often argue with that inner voice inside my mind.
Not all the time, of course. Sometimes we will agree on my actions immediately without word; other times I would think about what I should do, and my brain will generate some options, and we will start arguing over those options.
The conversations are generally funny but at the same time I found it really interesting.
Why do you always argue with me?! I often asked my inner voice. Aren't we supposed to be one and work together?
I'd like to think that my inner voice belongs to a little person residing in my mind. When we argue, that little person really seems to have a character of its own.
So I was lying on my bed just now thinking about how I was excluded out from the invitations to my secondary(middle) school's 20th anniversary event.[Show]
I thought about how a classmate of mine got called back by the school's vice principal herself to give a 7-10 minute speech, and how she was really smart, excelled at her CCA and had lots of good friends. And I didn't really like her from the start when I first met her at secondary 1, and I'm sure she didn't really like me or thought little of me too, although I guess it changed as we grew older.
Then I thought about how I saw a picture of my best friend on Facebook going on stage to receive some award, and how she made it to the Director's list because of her extremely good GPA.
I thought about how ahead my friends were of me in terms of academics. I thought about how active they were as I see my instagram flooded with their fun activities.
I thought about how I lazed around at home everyday during the holidays, only going out occasionally with my friends, and how I was being unproductive.
I laid there, in my silent, air-conditioned room, and the seconds ticked by. Slowly, that question surfaced in my mind.
Why was I even born?
I was achieving nothing. I have mediocre grades, mediocre looks, few friends to hang out with, no extra co-curricular activities to do in the school holidays; I still don't even know what I want to do in my life.
Don't I sound such a boring person in life? With a boring life. Just lazing around at home all day playing games on Facebook, occasionally going to the library to borrow one or two books to read at home.
If the human race were to experience all kinds of disasters on the earth and food, water and even clean air supply is running low right now, I can tell that I'll be one of the first people they will get rid off, because I'm so unproductive and useless.
After that question, comes my reply.
Heck, I didn't even chose to come here. I'm something that shouldn't even exist.
Which was technically true. Those weren't just self-pitying thoughts. I am an accident, which is why my father seemingly showed more love towards me than my other two siblings, which is definitely NOT true. He loves all of us equally, just that it seems like he showed more love towards me.
Contrary to popular thoughts that it's just because I'm his youngest child, which may be partly true, but it was more to make up for the fact that I was unplanned, whereas my two older siblings were planned.
So, an unplanned child, achieving nothing so far in her tertiary life, with mediocre grades, a non-active social life, and academically average compared to her two older siblings who are academically smarter, have better looks and have a more social life than me.
Yet, I am still here. I said to myself bitterly. I didn't contract any life-threatening diseases before, and I haven't gotten into anything that threatens to take my life away. Fate wants me to keep living.
THEN KEEP ON LIVING!!!
My inner voice shouted at me.
There are youth your age, children even younger than you, who have a goal in their minds, have an even stronger spirit than you, yet lost their lives to cancer, tumors, or other life threatening illnesses, or are involved in some tragic disasters, and here you are lamenting to yourself how pitiful you are, which YOU ARE RIGHT NOW, and wallowing in self pity when you can do so many things!! You have a healthy body, not easily prone to illnesses, a set of normal arms and legs, and you can think and speak normally. All five senses are working normally. Already you can do so many things that you often take for granted! If you don't know what you want to do, FINE! Just keep studying in your course first! Slowly figure out what you want to do! The least you can do is to keep living!! Don't give up on life so easily! You have something, something that many other people cannot afford to have! LIFE! KEEP LIVING!!!!
Yes.
This is the kind of thing that my inner voice will say to me.
It will often shout and shoot back at me, and it can be really frank.
That's why I think that my inner voice has a personality of its own.
So I replied to my inner voice:
Yeah. I know.
I'm still walking foward, even now. My life energy is still there.
You don't see me down on the ground, do you?
Because even then, I'm still walking.
My footprints are there.
No matter how life pushes me back, I will show life how strong I am.
One step foward after another.
As long as you see me take one step foward,
As long as you don't see me stop,
The game is not over.
Haunted TV?!
So last night, I was in the mood to play the piano.
So I went to the living room where it's dark and everything is switched off. I switched on the lights, and proceeded to play the piano for a good half an hour or so.
Satisfied, I went to switch off the lights, and turned to leave when I noticed that the TV IS ON!!!
My eyes widened and I kind of ran all the way to the master bedroom where my mother is, sitting in front of the computer watching some video on youtube.
I WAS REALLY SCARED.
Me: (horrified expression)"Maaaa!! The the the...the TV IS ON!!!"
Mother: "Huh, TV is on? I thought I've already turned it off just now!" (in chinese)
Me: OAO (explains the whole situation to her) The TV is haunted!!! ;_;
Mother: Ahhh, then you help me off the TV la.
Me: Huh?! But but...I'm scared of the dark! What if some scary face appear on the TV?! TAT (The TV is on with a dark screen.)
Mother: Haiyo, scared of what? What scary face? (goes to the living room and turns off the TV)
Me: ...;_;
I didn't dare look directly at the TV after that for that entire night.
I also posted the incident on Facebook, after which my sister replied:
So I went to the living room where it's dark and everything is switched off. I switched on the lights, and proceeded to play the piano for a good half an hour or so.
Satisfied, I went to switch off the lights, and turned to leave when I noticed that the TV IS ON!!!
My eyes widened and I kind of ran all the way to the master bedroom where my mother is, sitting in front of the computer watching some video on youtube.
I WAS REALLY SCARED.
Me: (horrified expression)"Maaaa!! The the the...the TV IS ON!!!"
Mother: "Huh, TV is on? I thought I've already turned it off just now!" (in chinese)
Me: OAO (explains the whole situation to her) The TV is haunted!!! ;_;
Mother: Ahhh, then you help me off the TV la.
Me: Huh?! But but...I'm scared of the dark! What if some scary face appear on the TV?! TAT (The TV is on with a dark screen.)
Mother: Haiyo, scared of what? What scary face? (goes to the living room and turns off the TV)
Me: ...;_;
I didn't dare look directly at the TV after that for that entire night.
I also posted the incident on Facebook, after which my sister replied:
Knowing her, it's possible she wasn't joking. Maybe our TV is REALLY haunted.
But telling me right at midnight isn't going to help me calm my nerves down, sister.
But telling me right at midnight isn't going to help me calm my nerves down, sister.
Wednesday 2 April 2014
Time.
This was something that I came up with when I was alone in my room on a peaceful, quiet night a year ago.
It's not really a poem or anything; it's just what I think about time.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Time moves on forever.
Time doesn't know how to stop.
People stop at several points in their lives.
People do not know how to move on.
The never ending times pushes its way forward, regardless of whatever events that occurred in the world.
Time helps people to move on; it pushes them from their stop point and makes them move their feet and take steps foward again.
Many people rely on time to help heal the wounds they have suffered internally.
Most of the time, it is the only way to help them.
Even then, time cannot completely help them to heal their emotional scars.
To deal with the pain, people must learn to accept what happened has happened. Then, they will no longer live their lives in denial, with a fake smile plastered on their face which covers up their sufferings.
Once they accept reality, they will become emotionally stronger, replacing tears with more genuine smiles and laughter, as they finally move on with a determined spirit to keep living life.
Time is very important to people.
Without time, there will not be order in life.
Time is essential in this world.
Time is important to people. Are people important to time?
People are not important to time.
Time moves on in its own pace, ignorant of people's feelings.
It doesn't matter if it destroys people's happiness, or heal people's wounds.
Time must move on to maintain order in life.
Time is not all powerful.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~.~
Time cannot liven up memories, because time cannot stop itself, turn back and retrace its pace.
Time cannot rewind. Time cannot replace anybody.
Time must always move foward in its own pace.
For the people.
For the sake of order in life.
Something lingering on my mind.
Two days ago, I was having a conversation with my father, who rarely comes home recently because of his heavy workload.
He and I were standing near the refrigerator in the kitchen, and he was telling me about how he has to go back to work at Batam again the next day(which was yesterday).
Me: "What, again? But I rarely see you anymore!"
Father: "Yes I know dear, but it can't be helped."
Me: (sigh) "When are you coming back?"
Father: "This Friday, to accompany mama to the hospital for a checkup."
Me: (eyes widened)"Oh, a checkup? What for?"
Father: (takes my arm gently and puts it against his side. There was a pause as he looks at the fridge, and his grip on my arm became more firm. I looked away and waited quietly for an answer.)
Father: "Just a normal medical checkup, dear." (avoids eye contact)
Me: "...Okay." (starting to grow suspicious)
Then we changed the topic to how my older brother was now learning to drive a car.
Obviously I wasn't convinced with the previous answer my father gave me, so I asked my mother who entered the kitchen.
Me: "So ma, you have a checkup this friday?"
Mother: "Ya. Your friend is coming over this friday right? So you guys will settle your own lunch and all."
Me: "Yes ma. So what kind of medical checkup is it?"
Mother: "Just a normal medical checkup la."
Me: "...Okay." :/
I decided not to press the issue further on, but I had a strong feeling that they were hiding something from me. At the same time, I really hoped that I was just overthinking things, and I was wrong. I decided to try one last time the next day, when I saw my mother trying to bend her finger in the kitchen. She told me how she had difficulty bending her fingers, and says it's probably a matter of time before she starts experiencing pain in them.
Me: "Oh...that's bad. So is that the reason why you need to go for that checkup on Friday?"
Mother: "No la. That checkup is for other things."
Me: "...O...kay...."
Fine. As much as my curiousity is killing me to find out, I stopped pressing it further. Ever since that conversation though, it has always been in my mind, with this big question "floating around" asking: "Why does my mother need to go for a medical checkup and what is that checkup for?"
Please do not let it be something serious. That is all.
He and I were standing near the refrigerator in the kitchen, and he was telling me about how he has to go back to work at Batam again the next day(which was yesterday).
Me: "What, again? But I rarely see you anymore!"
Father: "Yes I know dear, but it can't be helped."
Me: (sigh) "When are you coming back?"
Father: "This Friday, to accompany mama to the hospital for a checkup."
Me: (eyes widened)"Oh, a checkup? What for?"
Father: (takes my arm gently and puts it against his side. There was a pause as he looks at the fridge, and his grip on my arm became more firm. I looked away and waited quietly for an answer.)
Father: "Just a normal medical checkup, dear." (avoids eye contact)
Me: "...Okay." (starting to grow suspicious)
Then we changed the topic to how my older brother was now learning to drive a car.
Obviously I wasn't convinced with the previous answer my father gave me, so I asked my mother who entered the kitchen.
Me: "So ma, you have a checkup this friday?"
Mother: "Ya. Your friend is coming over this friday right? So you guys will settle your own lunch and all."
Me: "Yes ma. So what kind of medical checkup is it?"
Mother: "Just a normal medical checkup la."
Me: "...Okay." :/
I decided not to press the issue further on, but I had a strong feeling that they were hiding something from me. At the same time, I really hoped that I was just overthinking things, and I was wrong. I decided to try one last time the next day, when I saw my mother trying to bend her finger in the kitchen. She told me how she had difficulty bending her fingers, and says it's probably a matter of time before she starts experiencing pain in them.
Me: "Oh...that's bad. So is that the reason why you need to go for that checkup on Friday?"
Mother: "No la. That checkup is for other things."
Me: "...O...kay...."
Fine. As much as my curiousity is killing me to find out, I stopped pressing it further. Ever since that conversation though, it has always been in my mind, with this big question "floating around" asking: "Why does my mother need to go for a medical checkup and what is that checkup for?"
Please do not let it be something serious. That is all.
Tuesday 1 April 2014
A fresh start on April Fools Day!
Hello! *peeks out meekly* Uhm, after going through a nearly half a year-long hiatus, I'm kind of back? On April Fool's day. Well, the reason why I've been m.i.a for such a long period of time is because of well...personal reasons, school, life, laziness, procrastination, and uhm...I just wanted to take a break from blogging for awhile.
Let's see...after October...ah yes. That time I was in my second semester of my first year in polytechnic. I guess... well, I have to say that that semester was generally much better as compared to the previous semester, semester 1. Better modules overall, better groups, and my sem 2 GPA was much better than my sem 1 GPA. ^//^" [Rant about my GPA here :/] So far during the long, long holidays I've been enjoying, I...pretty much slacked at home. Sometimes I go out with my friends. I had planned to work, but I kept meeting up with my friends, and by the time I tried finding a suitable job that doesn't require experience (I'm a newbie @@) and doesn't require long-term commitment, it's tough. *sigh* So my life pretty revolves around me waking up, eating, sleeping ,using the computer. Pretty much like Shintaro from Kagerou Project. Except I do go out sometimes, and he doesn't. >< But he has a very sad reason why he stayed at home and never went out. T_T
Anyway, I still have a couple of things on my mind. Which I will probably post later, or tomorrow. But this post is long enough because of the rant above(if you click it anyway), so I will end off for now.
Plus I need to search for a blogskin for this blog hahaha.
Let's see...after October...ah yes. That time I was in my second semester of my first year in polytechnic. I guess... well, I have to say that that semester was generally much better as compared to the previous semester, semester 1. Better modules overall, better groups, and my sem 2 GPA was much better than my sem 1 GPA. ^//^" [Rant about my GPA here :/] So far during the long, long holidays I've been enjoying, I...pretty much slacked at home. Sometimes I go out with my friends. I had planned to work, but I kept meeting up with my friends, and by the time I tried finding a suitable job that doesn't require experience (I'm a newbie @@) and doesn't require long-term commitment, it's tough. *sigh* So my life pretty revolves around me waking up, eating, sleeping ,using the computer. Pretty much like Shintaro from Kagerou Project. Except I do go out sometimes, and he doesn't. >< But he has a very sad reason why he stayed at home and never went out. T_T
Anyway, I still have a couple of things on my mind. Which I will probably post later, or tomorrow. But this post is long enough because of the rant above(if you click it anyway), so I will end off for now.
Plus I need to search for a blogskin for this blog hahaha.
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